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Sunday, June 27, 2004

sara cut my hair and threw catfood at me.

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[marc_is_foxy]

so I didn't see that one.
But I did catch THIS....

So i dont know why i do things..... sometimes i feel like i lead a lie but it isnt true. yes somtimes i dont live to my word but i try my best to keep everyone satisfied in my life but im starting to realize that i need to satisfy myslef. ive already figured out who i am and who i want to be and that no1 can change that. people like me for who i am not some fake steriotipical unionville kid. i am different and i like that about myself and i feel that some people like that about me. i still dont know why i hurt others not in a physical way but im trying to satisfy everyone in my life and its very hard. this constant battle will be over in 9 days but its still on my mind. i want and need friends of everykind but some people are too ignorant to realize that. everyone need to get over this fake drama, clicks and other social bullshit. peace not war. yes i drink and yes i smoke pot but no i dont judge somone on if they do or not that is there choice and i respect that. i enjoy having fun with my friends and making a fool of myself and trying to live life to its fullest. live everyday like its your last make it worth your time. dont let things get to you take something bad and make it good. dont waste ur life upset and depressed because of some petty bullshit. the more you make urself happy the better ull feel everyday. i know this is hard and its somthing im working on. but i might add that drugs are not a way of going about this but sometimes it feels very good if uve had a bad week to go and get realy drunk and forget about things for a moment and it kinda makes u realize that if u force urself to forget things u stop worrying. look at everyone that u dont think likes u and say in ur head fuck them! u dont need them u r who u r and if they dont like that they u dont need them ur better than they are. yes there are people i hate but thats because they dont realize what is true is in the soul not how u dress or who ur friends with. go out and have fun meet people with the expectations of finding a new friend. take everyday for what its worth dont let things get u down its a waste of time. life is too short for bullshit. the onley thing u have to fear is fear itself. Live Love Fear Die. find urself in anyway shape or form and and love what ever you find to the fullest. even if it takes some maryjane to get ur thoughts running and figure out who you are. live a little and be open to new things and experiences, you may find what helps you get through the day. wether its music, sports, or a little bag of greens. stop living the life of the fake Unionville world because soon ull be out in the real world realizing all of the petty drama of highschool was a waste of ur time and u want ur childhood back. im here as a friend to anyone who wants help in finding themselves. it took me till sophmore year to figure out who i realy was and i want u too realize as soon as possible so u can stop wasting ur dam time! Much Love

Brian Stanley

oh my.
And I love how randomly in the middle he says Peace not war.
haha and
live a little and be open to new things and experiences, you may find what helps you get through the day. wether its music, sports, or a little bag of greens.