talents
eh what a stupid draft that just came back up haha
anyways
just honest self reflecting again, read it in an indifferent voice, as always lol
i believe that i do have talent in certain areas. i have a talent for art, i have a talent for writing, and i enjoy it more than most things. i can get by on math if i care enough, but i don't particularly like it. i accept that much.
it's just that i am reluctant to accept my talents, or to exploit them. but i know if i did, i could actually go somewhere with them, somewhere that i would be happy with. it's just very unsure. and i would like some certainty, haha, it would be nice. learn science! go to medical school! become a doctor! make money! la la la
not that i would plan on doing art as a living, but maybe i could go into film or something and make some money
but see, that's what i'm talking about. the uncertainty. how do i go down that path? seems like a path that you would need a lot of connections for... unless i'm very good at what i do, and people just accept that i don't like kissing ass? idk... are these valid thoughts and worries and concerns? idk either. idk.
honestly, i'm more interested in art, but i know i'm not talented enough to do that besides for have fun and enjoy being creative. i just want to be creative, always. i want to live a life of creativity, of reading, of growing, of stimulation. i want to be active and engaged and happy. but i'm scared... haha
anyways
just honest self reflecting again, read it in an indifferent voice, as always lol
i believe that i do have talent in certain areas. i have a talent for art, i have a talent for writing, and i enjoy it more than most things. i can get by on math if i care enough, but i don't particularly like it. i accept that much.
it's just that i am reluctant to accept my talents, or to exploit them. but i know if i did, i could actually go somewhere with them, somewhere that i would be happy with. it's just very unsure. and i would like some certainty, haha, it would be nice. learn science! go to medical school! become a doctor! make money! la la la
not that i would plan on doing art as a living, but maybe i could go into film or something and make some money
but see, that's what i'm talking about. the uncertainty. how do i go down that path? seems like a path that you would need a lot of connections for... unless i'm very good at what i do, and people just accept that i don't like kissing ass? idk... are these valid thoughts and worries and concerns? idk either. idk.
honestly, i'm more interested in art, but i know i'm not talented enough to do that besides for have fun and enjoy being creative. i just want to be creative, always. i want to live a life of creativity, of reading, of growing, of stimulation. i want to be active and engaged and happy. but i'm scared... haha