christmas list

[blueasyellow]

i know exactly what i want for christmas.
and i never wanna do anything wrong again.
i dont wanna drink or smoke. i dont wanna lie or gossip or cheat. i dont want to control or die.
i just want one thing.
just
one.
i dont need it. but i'd kill for it to be mine.
so...
what do i do?
do i wait?
do i move?
do i cry?
do i dare to try?

so confused. so confusing.

love.
jes.