So many feelings.
In five days, I graduate from grad school.
Four days after that, we move to a new apartment.
The day after that, we bring home our new cat. (Apparently we're adopting a cat. That was NOT in the plan. But things happen.)
Then I try desperately to find a job.
Life is very weird. I never imagined I'd even be in graduate school, let alone make it through. And now that it's almost over, I have so many feelings. Mostly it's relief, that I'm almost done and I don't have to deal with school again. But there's also the looming terror of having to get a job and enter the real world. (I did it before, after college, but somehow this time it's worse.) And there's the incredible sadness at leaving my classmates. Two years ago, I didn't know any of these people existed, but now I'm so used to spending day in and day out with the same eighteen people that the thought of not having that support network around is so depressing I can't even wrap my head around it. I know they're still going to be in my life, we're not losing each other forever, but it won't be the same once we're scattered across the world.
I thought graduate school would never end, but it's gone by so fast. And I don't know how to feel about that.
Four days after that, we move to a new apartment.
The day after that, we bring home our new cat. (Apparently we're adopting a cat. That was NOT in the plan. But things happen.)
Then I try desperately to find a job.
Life is very weird. I never imagined I'd even be in graduate school, let alone make it through. And now that it's almost over, I have so many feelings. Mostly it's relief, that I'm almost done and I don't have to deal with school again. But there's also the looming terror of having to get a job and enter the real world. (I did it before, after college, but somehow this time it's worse.) And there's the incredible sadness at leaving my classmates. Two years ago, I didn't know any of these people existed, but now I'm so used to spending day in and day out with the same eighteen people that the thought of not having that support network around is so depressing I can't even wrap my head around it. I know they're still going to be in my life, we're not losing each other forever, but it won't be the same once we're scattered across the world.
I thought graduate school would never end, but it's gone by so fast. And I don't know how to feel about that.