[Playlist/Fanmix: Hide the Night] Henrik Lundqvist/Brad Richards & Vincent Lecavalier/Brad Richards
I don't know how many of you are interested in this, but I found as I was writing each part to the Hide the Night-verse, I would have a certain song on repeat, and that song had a profound impact on how that particular part was shaped.
Anyway, under the cut you will find a complete track list, link to the fic in question, fic snippets, and a download link for all the songs. Let me know what you think, and if the link goes down. ♥
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Hide the Night playlist
A Henrik Lundqvist/Brad Richards & Vincent Lecavalier/Brad Richards playlist/fanmix
1. REBELLION (LIES) ~ Arcade Fire
(Try and Hide the Night)
people say that your dreams are the only things that save you.
come on baby in our dreams, we can live our misbehaviour.
every time you close your eyes ... lies, lies!
people try and hide the night underneath the covers.
people try and hide the light underneath the covers.
come on hide your lovers underneath the covers.
Hank leaned in then, mouth close to Brad's. He didn't move for a few moments, just let his lips hover over Brad's, hands braced on either side of his head. His stance was meant to be predatory, and Brad trembled despite himself.
"Are you frightened?" Hank whispered finally, tongue licking over Brad's lower lip.
Not trusting himself to speak, Brad swallowed hard around the lump in his throat, and shook his head.
2. HUMMINGBIRDS THE SIZE OF BULLETS ~ Kill Hannah
(Hummingbirds the Size of Bullets)
and my skin she said it shakes
so hard the gears are falling off
and the walls, they seem to jump out of place
and fly like kites in outerspace
Brad's back comes up against the wall shortly after, Hank slides his thigh between Brad's legs, pinning him against the wall. He manages to get his slightly calloused hands up and under Brad's sweatshirt. He drags the fleece up and over Brad's head, raking his blunt nails over the exposed bronzed skin. Brad moans as Hank's thumbs torment his nipples, and he squirms, his hips bumping involuntarily against Hank.
3. BLOODBUZZ OHIO ~ The National
(Floors are Falling out from Everybody I Know)
Stand up straight at the foot of your love
I'll lift my shirt up
Stand up straight at the foot of your love
I'll lift my shirt up
When he glanced up from his phone, he noticed Hank staring at him. Hank had his garment bag slung over his arm, his blue eyes holding all the whispers and promises Brad could imagine in his lifetime.
Hank slips from the room before Brad has a chance to tell him good luck. He thinks it is probably better that way. Less chance for him to reach out, let his fingers just brush Hank's, and stare at his bright blue eyes. Then again, would it have been so bad if he had told him good luck. Brad tells himself it wouldn't be that bad. It might make what they've been doing actually seem real.
4. NOTHING WITHOUT YOU ~ Vienna Teng
(Fold Myself Away Before it Burns me Numb)
It's the crowded room that breaks me: everybody looks so luminous, and strangely young.
It's the crowded room that's never heard.
No one here can say a word of my native tongue.
I can't be among them anymore.
I fold myself away before it burns me numb.
He kisses Brad again, desperate, searching, needy. Hank kisses him like he's trying to dispel the last remaining vestiges of Vince from Brad's mind. He's not sure if it works, but he's not complaining. And when Brad curls his fingers into Hank's hair, and plays with the hair at the nape of his neck, Hank stops thinking all together.
Brad whimpers into Hank's mouth, and trembles slightly under Hank's exploring hands.
5. SLOW SHOW ~ The National
(Everything I Love gets Lost in Drawers)
I wanna hurry home to you
Put on a slow, dumb show for you and crack you up
So you can put a blue ribbon on my brain
God I'm very, very frightening, I'll overdo it
Hank runs a hand through Brad's hair, before it tightens in his hair, and he drags Brad's head towards his, crushing their mouths together, the kiss full of need. Before he can fully process how dark, and twisted this whole situation is, he has his hand inside Brad's pants, running his dry hand over Brad's cock. Brad is a quivering mess in his arms shortly after, leaning his head on Hank's shoulder, as Hank's finger dips into the slit at the head of Brad's cock, the pre-come coating his finger.
6. L'AVEU ~ Garou
(L'aveu de L'amour)
L'aveu de l'amour le plaisir inhumain
L'aveu de l'amour le désir assassin
L'aveu de l'amour c'est l'encre de mes veines
Le sang que je délivre
Lorsque j'écrie je t'aime
Au grand jours de mes nuit
“Le cœur a ses raisons," Vince whispered in the aftermath.
"The heart has its reasons," Brad whispered back.
“Que la raison ne connaît pas,” Vince continued, stepping away from Brad slightly.
"Of which reason means nothing."
7. WONDERWALL ~ Oasis
(Fire in your Heart is Out)
There are many things that I would
Like to say to you
But I don't know how
Because maybe
You're gonna be the one that saves me
And after all
You're my wonderwall
It's a long while before either of them speaks. When Brad looks up, Hank is eyeing him intently. His eyes searching. Brad thinks he knows what the look is, because he knows it well. It was the same look he was sure he had in his eyes at Vince's wedding.
He has to look away then. Brad reaches for a nearby towel and wipes his hand on it slowly, his back to Hank.
8. WHEN I SEE YOU ~ Chris Botti
(Whispers of my Heart)
Instrumental
Brad shifts closer to Hank, and presses his face into the curve of Hank's neck, breath steady, as he listens to the little hitch in Hank's voice at his movement. He doesn't even protest when Hank pulls the blanket up over his shoulders, and presses his lips to his hair. It's chaste, and subtle, but it still causes warmth to spill through his veins.
9. NO WAY ~ The Naked and Famous
(We Can Take it All Apart)
When the night descends
I sleep in
All the things you've done
Come to hold me
All that we can do
Is smile
It would be like this
For a while
Finally, Hank reaches his hands out, bracing them on Brad's upper arms, as he presses him against the cool metal of his car. "Stay with me forever," he breathes.
"Oh." A soft exhalation of air that tickles the stubble on Hank's chin.
"Yeah," he agrees.
And then Brad's lips are there, his hands curling around Hank's neck, pressing against his neck. He presses open-mouthed kisses against Hank's neck, breathes in the generic soap from the locker room and Hank's cologne.
10. SUMMERTIME SADNESS ~ Lana Del Rey
(Kiss me Hard Before you Go)
Kiss me hard before you go
Summertime sadness
I just wanted you to know
That, baby, you're the best
Brad feels his skin tingle from the dying rays of Tampa's sun as they filter in through the window. He hears Hank sigh, and press a kiss to his hair, before he steps away from him.
"What do you mean by that?" Brad finally manages to choke out.
Hank smiles sadly, before he turns and walks towards the door. Just before he exits Brad's room, he turns to him. "If you have to ask me that, Brad, you'll never know." He hesitates for a beat, before he says, "You know where to find me."
11. SET FIRE TO THE THIRD BAR ~ Snow Patrol feat. Martha Wainwright
(Set Fire to the Third Bar)
I find the map and draw a straight line
Over rivers, farms, and state lines
The distance from 'A' to where you'd be
It's only finger-lengths that I see
I touch the place where I'd find your face
My fingers in creases of distant dark places
Looking back on it all, Brad supposes it was really a fool's errand to believe anything that happened at Athol Murray still held any weight now. He blamed the overreaction at Vinny's drafting to Rimouski Océanic on them being just kids.
And, just as kids do, they eventually grow up. Except, in his and Vinny's case, they grew up together. They watched the other flirt with girls, date, and break a few dozen hearts along the way.
12. LOVE SHOW ~ Skye
(When I See You)
You don't know
Somebody's aching. Keeping it all in
Somebody won't let go of his heart but the truth is
It's painless
Letting your love show
Hank's gaze flicked to Brad's. His blue eyes meeting Brad's amber ones. "Once," he breathed. Hank wanted to shake him for being so … blind.
Brad seemed to deflate slightly by that omission. He looked at Hank, curiosity overtaking his expression. "Want to talk about it?"
Not yet, Hank thought wistfully. He was not ready. At least not yet. This was just what he had to do, despite how hard it actually was to stay away from him.
13. LUCKY ONES ~ Lana Del Rey
(You and Me are the Lucky Ones Tonight)
Everybody told me love was blind
Then I saw your face and you blew my mind
Finally, you and me are the lucky ones this time
Boy get into my car, got a bad desire
You know that we'll never leave if we don't get out, now, now
You're a careless con, and you're the crazy liar
Brad shrugs. "I came to the wedding, isn't that enough?"
Vince feels all the anger and hurt he's felt boil over, and he grabs Brad's arms, and shakes him. "No, it's not."
"What do you want me to say?" Brad returns, eyes flashing with anger. "We …"
"We're not over," Vince growls, not letting Brad finish his sentence. He fists his hand in Brad's hair, and pulls him in, lips catching on Brad's in a bruising kiss.
14. YOU MOVE ME ~ Chris Botti
(One's Not Half Two. It's Two are Halves of One)
Instrumental
Brad was dizzy almost as soon as he felt Hank's lips touch his. God, Hank kissed like a house on fire. The heat, the urgency, was like flames licking the sides of a house. Brad swayed against him.
Hank was tender, and he moved slowly, as if he was afraid Brad would turn and run. But, Brad could feel his desire. From the way, Hank's fingers were tangled in his hair, to the urgent way he parted Brad's mouth with his tongue. Brad had never been kissed like this before. No one had ever kissed him the way Hank was now. It made him dizzy.
15. FEVERED ~ The Stills
(Your Sacred Heart)
Strange like skin
That I believe in
It leaks out of the phone
And spills like
Honey from the window
Warm and strange
I can't remember
How the heartbreak mends
When the fever it remains
Without looking to see who was calling, Hank picked up the phone.
"Hello?" he said.
Silence for a beat, before he hears Vince's voice on the other end. "Henrik?"
Hank is still, phone pressed to his ear. "Yeah."
"Why do you have Brad's phone?"
"Figure it out, Vincent."
16. CINEMA PARADISO ~ Chris Botti
(Here is the Repeated Image of the Lover Destroyed)
Instrumental
"My house in Tampa?" Brad asks. He watches the streets, listens to the sounds of the city that never sleeps, before he inhales deeply, and says, "I need an estimate on it."
"An estimate? Can I ask why?"
Brad bites his bottom lip, wonders if he can get through the rest of his life without having to press the self-destruct button. He hears the sheets as they rustle, and he pulls his thoughts away from Vinny, and his past, as he turns and stares at the bed. Watches Hank in the darkness as he sleeps, and he thinks he can. Make it through that is.
17. RULES DON'T STOP ~ We Are Scientists
(Take a Piece of my Soul)
Don’t be alarmed
It’s not the end of the world
If we’re breaking the rules it’s fine
I disregard this kind of problem all the time
It’s not as if it’s gonna kill anyone
If there’s no victim then there’s no crime
Just draw another if you think we’ve crossed the line
Brad finally turned, suitcase gripped tightly in his hand. "I have to go to Tampa."
Everything went silent.
Hank blinked, eyes locked on Brad, who was currently biting on his bottom lip. "Do I dare ask why."
Brad looked at Hank. "It's just -"
Hank had to look away then. "I'll call you a cab."
"Hank it's not -"
18. RUN ~ Matt Nathanson feat. Jennifer Nettles and Kristian Bush
(Let Life burn Down, and Dream it is not Death)
You pull me in close
You buckle my knees
I shake and I shiver just to feel you breathe
You trace my lines
(You trace your lines)
Stirring my soul
Shoot sparks at the heart of the world and I watch it explode
Brad barely registers the coolness in the air until Hank's warm hands are on his skin. Hank's hands are under his shirt, his slightly callused palms are warm against his flesh. He strips Brad's clothes away, and lets Brad clumsily remove his shirt. Hank puts his mouth on Brad's shoulder, follows the curve of his shoulder down, his tongue hot against his skin as he licks.
Brad shivers, and shifts closer in Hank's embrace.
"Cold?" Hank murmurs. His mouth pressed to Brad's chest.
"It's fine," Brad whispers.
19. BEAUTIFUL GOODBYE ~ Amanda Marshall
(Do What you Have To)
We staggered through these empty streets
Laughing arm in arm
The night had made a mess of me
Your confessions kept me warm
I don't really miss you, I just need to know
Do you ever think of you and I
And that beautiful goodbye
Vince's eyes slide to Brad's. "I want you to tell me about Henrik. Tell me everything about him. His nicknames, his siblings, what kind of eggs he likes for breakfast, how he touches you …"
"Vince -"
"Let me finish. I never thought I would ever want someone, or need someone as much as I need you. You were everything I could ever want. I thought no one could make us happy except each other. That nobody had the right to make you happy. I never stopped to think about how different our lives got. I didn't care. So, before we walk away from us, let me hear my fill of you, and Henrik, because it'll be a long time before …" Vince let his voice trail off.
20. EVERYWHERE ~ Fleetwood Mac
(Break my Arms around the One I Love)
You know that I'm falling
And I don't know what to say
I'll speak a little louder
I'll even shout
You know that I'm pround
And I can't get the words out
Oh I...
I want to be with you everywhere
"Brad, when you look at me, who do you see?"
Brad pulls back slightly, eyes assessing as they run over Hank. "The man that saved me when I thought I was wasting away. The one who never asked me for anything beyond what I could give at the time. The one who never questioned anything. The man I love."
Hank shook his head, eyes sad. "No, that's not what I meant."
"I know what you mean," Brad says, hands coming up, cupping Hank's face in his hands, as their eyes locked. "I see Hank."
Anyway, under the cut you will find a complete track list, link to the fic in question, fic snippets, and a download link for all the songs. Let me know what you think, and if the link goes down. ♥
»download full playlist here«
Hide the Night playlist
A Henrik Lundqvist/Brad Richards & Vincent Lecavalier/Brad Richards playlist/fanmix
1. REBELLION (LIES) ~ Arcade Fire
(Try and Hide the Night)
people say that your dreams are the only things that save you.
come on baby in our dreams, we can live our misbehaviour.
every time you close your eyes ... lies, lies!
people try and hide the night underneath the covers.
people try and hide the light underneath the covers.
come on hide your lovers underneath the covers.
Hank leaned in then, mouth close to Brad's. He didn't move for a few moments, just let his lips hover over Brad's, hands braced on either side of his head. His stance was meant to be predatory, and Brad trembled despite himself.
"Are you frightened?" Hank whispered finally, tongue licking over Brad's lower lip.
Not trusting himself to speak, Brad swallowed hard around the lump in his throat, and shook his head.
2. HUMMINGBIRDS THE SIZE OF BULLETS ~ Kill Hannah
(Hummingbirds the Size of Bullets)
and my skin she said it shakes
so hard the gears are falling off
and the walls, they seem to jump out of place
and fly like kites in outerspace
Brad's back comes up against the wall shortly after, Hank slides his thigh between Brad's legs, pinning him against the wall. He manages to get his slightly calloused hands up and under Brad's sweatshirt. He drags the fleece up and over Brad's head, raking his blunt nails over the exposed bronzed skin. Brad moans as Hank's thumbs torment his nipples, and he squirms, his hips bumping involuntarily against Hank.
3. BLOODBUZZ OHIO ~ The National
(Floors are Falling out from Everybody I Know)
Stand up straight at the foot of your love
I'll lift my shirt up
Stand up straight at the foot of your love
I'll lift my shirt up
When he glanced up from his phone, he noticed Hank staring at him. Hank had his garment bag slung over his arm, his blue eyes holding all the whispers and promises Brad could imagine in his lifetime.
Hank slips from the room before Brad has a chance to tell him good luck. He thinks it is probably better that way. Less chance for him to reach out, let his fingers just brush Hank's, and stare at his bright blue eyes. Then again, would it have been so bad if he had told him good luck. Brad tells himself it wouldn't be that bad. It might make what they've been doing actually seem real.
4. NOTHING WITHOUT YOU ~ Vienna Teng
(Fold Myself Away Before it Burns me Numb)
It's the crowded room that breaks me: everybody looks so luminous, and strangely young.
It's the crowded room that's never heard.
No one here can say a word of my native tongue.
I can't be among them anymore.
I fold myself away before it burns me numb.
He kisses Brad again, desperate, searching, needy. Hank kisses him like he's trying to dispel the last remaining vestiges of Vince from Brad's mind. He's not sure if it works, but he's not complaining. And when Brad curls his fingers into Hank's hair, and plays with the hair at the nape of his neck, Hank stops thinking all together.
Brad whimpers into Hank's mouth, and trembles slightly under Hank's exploring hands.
5. SLOW SHOW ~ The National
(Everything I Love gets Lost in Drawers)
I wanna hurry home to you
Put on a slow, dumb show for you and crack you up
So you can put a blue ribbon on my brain
God I'm very, very frightening, I'll overdo it
Hank runs a hand through Brad's hair, before it tightens in his hair, and he drags Brad's head towards his, crushing their mouths together, the kiss full of need. Before he can fully process how dark, and twisted this whole situation is, he has his hand inside Brad's pants, running his dry hand over Brad's cock. Brad is a quivering mess in his arms shortly after, leaning his head on Hank's shoulder, as Hank's finger dips into the slit at the head of Brad's cock, the pre-come coating his finger.
6. L'AVEU ~ Garou
(L'aveu de L'amour)
L'aveu de l'amour le plaisir inhumain
L'aveu de l'amour le désir assassin
L'aveu de l'amour c'est l'encre de mes veines
Le sang que je délivre
Lorsque j'écrie je t'aime
Au grand jours de mes nuit
“Le cœur a ses raisons," Vince whispered in the aftermath.
"The heart has its reasons," Brad whispered back.
“Que la raison ne connaît pas,” Vince continued, stepping away from Brad slightly.
"Of which reason means nothing."
7. WONDERWALL ~ Oasis
(Fire in your Heart is Out)
There are many things that I would
Like to say to you
But I don't know how
Because maybe
You're gonna be the one that saves me
And after all
You're my wonderwall
It's a long while before either of them speaks. When Brad looks up, Hank is eyeing him intently. His eyes searching. Brad thinks he knows what the look is, because he knows it well. It was the same look he was sure he had in his eyes at Vince's wedding.
He has to look away then. Brad reaches for a nearby towel and wipes his hand on it slowly, his back to Hank.
8. WHEN I SEE YOU ~ Chris Botti
(Whispers of my Heart)
Instrumental
Brad shifts closer to Hank, and presses his face into the curve of Hank's neck, breath steady, as he listens to the little hitch in Hank's voice at his movement. He doesn't even protest when Hank pulls the blanket up over his shoulders, and presses his lips to his hair. It's chaste, and subtle, but it still causes warmth to spill through his veins.
9. NO WAY ~ The Naked and Famous
(We Can Take it All Apart)
When the night descends
I sleep in
All the things you've done
Come to hold me
All that we can do
Is smile
It would be like this
For a while
Finally, Hank reaches his hands out, bracing them on Brad's upper arms, as he presses him against the cool metal of his car. "Stay with me forever," he breathes.
"Oh." A soft exhalation of air that tickles the stubble on Hank's chin.
"Yeah," he agrees.
And then Brad's lips are there, his hands curling around Hank's neck, pressing against his neck. He presses open-mouthed kisses against Hank's neck, breathes in the generic soap from the locker room and Hank's cologne.
10. SUMMERTIME SADNESS ~ Lana Del Rey
(Kiss me Hard Before you Go)
Kiss me hard before you go
Summertime sadness
I just wanted you to know
That, baby, you're the best
Brad feels his skin tingle from the dying rays of Tampa's sun as they filter in through the window. He hears Hank sigh, and press a kiss to his hair, before he steps away from him.
"What do you mean by that?" Brad finally manages to choke out.
Hank smiles sadly, before he turns and walks towards the door. Just before he exits Brad's room, he turns to him. "If you have to ask me that, Brad, you'll never know." He hesitates for a beat, before he says, "You know where to find me."
11. SET FIRE TO THE THIRD BAR ~ Snow Patrol feat. Martha Wainwright
(Set Fire to the Third Bar)
I find the map and draw a straight line
Over rivers, farms, and state lines
The distance from 'A' to where you'd be
It's only finger-lengths that I see
I touch the place where I'd find your face
My fingers in creases of distant dark places
Looking back on it all, Brad supposes it was really a fool's errand to believe anything that happened at Athol Murray still held any weight now. He blamed the overreaction at Vinny's drafting to Rimouski Océanic on them being just kids.
And, just as kids do, they eventually grow up. Except, in his and Vinny's case, they grew up together. They watched the other flirt with girls, date, and break a few dozen hearts along the way.
12. LOVE SHOW ~ Skye
(When I See You)
You don't know
Somebody's aching. Keeping it all in
Somebody won't let go of his heart but the truth is
It's painless
Letting your love show
Hank's gaze flicked to Brad's. His blue eyes meeting Brad's amber ones. "Once," he breathed. Hank wanted to shake him for being so … blind.
Brad seemed to deflate slightly by that omission. He looked at Hank, curiosity overtaking his expression. "Want to talk about it?"
Not yet, Hank thought wistfully. He was not ready. At least not yet. This was just what he had to do, despite how hard it actually was to stay away from him.
13. LUCKY ONES ~ Lana Del Rey
(You and Me are the Lucky Ones Tonight)
Everybody told me love was blind
Then I saw your face and you blew my mind
Finally, you and me are the lucky ones this time
Boy get into my car, got a bad desire
You know that we'll never leave if we don't get out, now, now
You're a careless con, and you're the crazy liar
Brad shrugs. "I came to the wedding, isn't that enough?"
Vince feels all the anger and hurt he's felt boil over, and he grabs Brad's arms, and shakes him. "No, it's not."
"What do you want me to say?" Brad returns, eyes flashing with anger. "We …"
"We're not over," Vince growls, not letting Brad finish his sentence. He fists his hand in Brad's hair, and pulls him in, lips catching on Brad's in a bruising kiss.
14. YOU MOVE ME ~ Chris Botti
(One's Not Half Two. It's Two are Halves of One)
Instrumental
Brad was dizzy almost as soon as he felt Hank's lips touch his. God, Hank kissed like a house on fire. The heat, the urgency, was like flames licking the sides of a house. Brad swayed against him.
Hank was tender, and he moved slowly, as if he was afraid Brad would turn and run. But, Brad could feel his desire. From the way, Hank's fingers were tangled in his hair, to the urgent way he parted Brad's mouth with his tongue. Brad had never been kissed like this before. No one had ever kissed him the way Hank was now. It made him dizzy.
15. FEVERED ~ The Stills
(Your Sacred Heart)
Strange like skin
That I believe in
It leaks out of the phone
And spills like
Honey from the window
Warm and strange
I can't remember
How the heartbreak mends
When the fever it remains
Without looking to see who was calling, Hank picked up the phone.
"Hello?" he said.
Silence for a beat, before he hears Vince's voice on the other end. "Henrik?"
Hank is still, phone pressed to his ear. "Yeah."
"Why do you have Brad's phone?"
"Figure it out, Vincent."
16. CINEMA PARADISO ~ Chris Botti
(Here is the Repeated Image of the Lover Destroyed)
Instrumental
"My house in Tampa?" Brad asks. He watches the streets, listens to the sounds of the city that never sleeps, before he inhales deeply, and says, "I need an estimate on it."
"An estimate? Can I ask why?"
Brad bites his bottom lip, wonders if he can get through the rest of his life without having to press the self-destruct button. He hears the sheets as they rustle, and he pulls his thoughts away from Vinny, and his past, as he turns and stares at the bed. Watches Hank in the darkness as he sleeps, and he thinks he can. Make it through that is.
17. RULES DON'T STOP ~ We Are Scientists
(Take a Piece of my Soul)
Don’t be alarmed
It’s not the end of the world
If we’re breaking the rules it’s fine
I disregard this kind of problem all the time
It’s not as if it’s gonna kill anyone
If there’s no victim then there’s no crime
Just draw another if you think we’ve crossed the line
Brad finally turned, suitcase gripped tightly in his hand. "I have to go to Tampa."
Everything went silent.
Hank blinked, eyes locked on Brad, who was currently biting on his bottom lip. "Do I dare ask why."
Brad looked at Hank. "It's just -"
Hank had to look away then. "I'll call you a cab."
"Hank it's not -"
18. RUN ~ Matt Nathanson feat. Jennifer Nettles and Kristian Bush
(Let Life burn Down, and Dream it is not Death)
You pull me in close
You buckle my knees
I shake and I shiver just to feel you breathe
You trace my lines
(You trace your lines)
Stirring my soul
Shoot sparks at the heart of the world and I watch it explode
Brad barely registers the coolness in the air until Hank's warm hands are on his skin. Hank's hands are under his shirt, his slightly callused palms are warm against his flesh. He strips Brad's clothes away, and lets Brad clumsily remove his shirt. Hank puts his mouth on Brad's shoulder, follows the curve of his shoulder down, his tongue hot against his skin as he licks.
Brad shivers, and shifts closer in Hank's embrace.
"Cold?" Hank murmurs. His mouth pressed to Brad's chest.
"It's fine," Brad whispers.
19. BEAUTIFUL GOODBYE ~ Amanda Marshall
(Do What you Have To)
We staggered through these empty streets
Laughing arm in arm
The night had made a mess of me
Your confessions kept me warm
I don't really miss you, I just need to know
Do you ever think of you and I
And that beautiful goodbye
Vince's eyes slide to Brad's. "I want you to tell me about Henrik. Tell me everything about him. His nicknames, his siblings, what kind of eggs he likes for breakfast, how he touches you …"
"Vince -"
"Let me finish. I never thought I would ever want someone, or need someone as much as I need you. You were everything I could ever want. I thought no one could make us happy except each other. That nobody had the right to make you happy. I never stopped to think about how different our lives got. I didn't care. So, before we walk away from us, let me hear my fill of you, and Henrik, because it'll be a long time before …" Vince let his voice trail off.
20. EVERYWHERE ~ Fleetwood Mac
(Break my Arms around the One I Love)
You know that I'm falling
And I don't know what to say
I'll speak a little louder
I'll even shout
You know that I'm pround
And I can't get the words out
Oh I...
I want to be with you everywhere
"Brad, when you look at me, who do you see?"
Brad pulls back slightly, eyes assessing as they run over Hank. "The man that saved me when I thought I was wasting away. The one who never asked me for anything beyond what I could give at the time. The one who never questioned anything. The man I love."
Hank shook his head, eyes sad. "No, that's not what I meant."
"I know what you mean," Brad says, hands coming up, cupping Hank's face in his hands, as their eyes locked. "I see Hank."