the friend that should have stayed one.
got a phone call from my ex last night. among the women i've met in this lifetime her company i enjoy the most. i think we've always had that kind of rapport. lock us in a box and maybe we'll end up talking the whole day and never go to sleep. of course... only works when we're friends. we totally suck at any relationship much deeper than that. lolz.
so she quit her work. turns out she can't stay at the call center thingy. i don't blame her. it just spells utter boredom to me. not to mention the crazy work hours. then she's still stuck with her man whom she isn't so sure of. he sounds like a nice guy though and i think he's just what she needs. we ended up talking for two hours and until i had to cut it short so i can get enough sleep. it's a school night anyway. ;)
i told her about R3. she ended up telling me to let go of her. that i shouldn't stick around for someone who has no time for me. hehe... sadly it's not something i can do. i'm the patron saint for lost causes... i'm saint christopher's replacement. hahaha!
i kinda miss being with h4. she's probably my soul mate... the one i can't marry. lolz. it's just so comfy to be around her. we can talk about nearly anything under the sun. i think i made a mistake when i opted to have a relationship with her before. i sacrificed our friendship for something deeper, not knowing it was the best friendship i could ever have. big boo boo on my part. hope we get to fix that problem and stay true friends again... of course if she marries E5 she'd likely move to hawaii and never get to see me. speaking of soulmates, i now believe it isn't necessary for you to marry your soulmate. :D there's a certain comfort in that... your other half exists and is out there living her own life. lolz.
then there's a certain girl i always get to ride with on the way home. i joke around about it inside my head... that's she's probably my destined partner because of that. it's always coincidental... we almost always get to ride together on the way home. if i do overtime so does she. hehe... she works at hscbc right across the street from ateneo. she's got a roundish face but she's quite fit. pretty short though, and i've told myself i won't go for that anymore. it's kinda hard to lean over to kiss women who are shorter than me. it's difficult to hug them and kiss at the same time. lolz.
i miss kissing... i'm a makeout freak. lolz. whoops... looks like my brain is all over the place again. must be the coffee. lolz. when am i ever going to learn not to drink it all in one gulp. i need to tell myself to enjoy my Php 85.00 coffee rather than drink it solely for the caffeine.
so she quit her work. turns out she can't stay at the call center thingy. i don't blame her. it just spells utter boredom to me. not to mention the crazy work hours. then she's still stuck with her man whom she isn't so sure of. he sounds like a nice guy though and i think he's just what she needs. we ended up talking for two hours and until i had to cut it short so i can get enough sleep. it's a school night anyway. ;)
i told her about R3. she ended up telling me to let go of her. that i shouldn't stick around for someone who has no time for me. hehe... sadly it's not something i can do. i'm the patron saint for lost causes... i'm saint christopher's replacement. hahaha!
i kinda miss being with h4. she's probably my soul mate... the one i can't marry. lolz. it's just so comfy to be around her. we can talk about nearly anything under the sun. i think i made a mistake when i opted to have a relationship with her before. i sacrificed our friendship for something deeper, not knowing it was the best friendship i could ever have. big boo boo on my part. hope we get to fix that problem and stay true friends again... of course if she marries E5 she'd likely move to hawaii and never get to see me. speaking of soulmates, i now believe it isn't necessary for you to marry your soulmate. :D there's a certain comfort in that... your other half exists and is out there living her own life. lolz.
then there's a certain girl i always get to ride with on the way home. i joke around about it inside my head... that's she's probably my destined partner because of that. it's always coincidental... we almost always get to ride together on the way home. if i do overtime so does she. hehe... she works at hscbc right across the street from ateneo. she's got a roundish face but she's quite fit. pretty short though, and i've told myself i won't go for that anymore. it's kinda hard to lean over to kiss women who are shorter than me. it's difficult to hug them and kiss at the same time. lolz.
i miss kissing... i'm a makeout freak. lolz. whoops... looks like my brain is all over the place again. must be the coffee. lolz. when am i ever going to learn not to drink it all in one gulp. i need to tell myself to enjoy my Php 85.00 coffee rather than drink it solely for the caffeine.