As I snack on dried blueberries... and listen to Something Pretty...
I feel something palpably missing from my life. What is it? Is it a Balenciaga handbag? Is it religion? Is it the perfect pair of skinny jeans? Is it a boyfriend? Is it one of those rock waterfalls from Bed Bath & Beyond? Is my life now aimless compared to what it was sophomore year or junior year when I had so much work and purpose? I wonder if I could go back, if I would make the same sacrifices. Ok. I know. I wouldn't. If there's anything I learned from the decisions I've made, it's that you can't take a break from life. You just can't. It would be so ideal to take a break and work on yourself, but it's unfair to those around you. And it has put me in such a bizarre situation. Life is all about balance, and after all these years, that is what I'm finally trying for. That and embracing everything for what it's worth!....I miss being a little sister. It's a role I know so well.... Sorry this was a pretty bummed out entry, but it was a long way coming. In happier news, my deep cleansing mask should arrive tommorow and my phone on friday! Also, my mom has found two houses that are suitable to her taste... and she wants to buy both. Looks like I'm not going to college. lol. I actually want to move though... it would be interesting.