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Just a little update, although I think updates are somewhat boring for everyone else involved they're good to go back and read and think "oh yeah".
So mine:
I turned in notice for work yesterday. I'm so tired of that place, the (literally) criminal behavior, being paid under the table, having 30% of my tips taken away each night to support my boss's BMW (and probably coke) habit. And dealing with his leering and glares and too strong cologne every single night. And the incompetent management. And waitresses hired only because they are tall and thin but all barely sharing half a brain between them. So goodbye negative energy! Goodbye shitty tips! Goodbye crowded, tiny cafe that surely violates fire code every night! I have nothing lined up...but my life seems to work best that way. As the only cool waitress and I talked about last night, when you remove that negative entity that surrounds and blocks you, possibilities are allowed to come near you again. New Age-y shite, I'm sure...but I believe it, regardless.
The internship is still rockin' my socks. I was actually invited to a lunch "meeting" the other day, which basically involved the guys answering their cells and saying, "I can't talk, I'm in the middle of an important meeting" and then resuming their banter/diatribe about music or friends or whatever while slurping down cheap (but good) cafe food in SoHo that they charge to the company card. It sounds ridiculous, but I was just flattered to be invited along. I have a terrible tendency towards needing to be accepted by people I imagine would never find me acceptable and then being ecstatic and warmed by whatever scraps they throw my way. I don't know if it's the same in this case, but it feels familiar. It makes me think of a summer just one year ago.
Other positives about the i-ship is that the little online promotion I've been working on is going really well. Enthusiasm is high for the record that is being released (June 17th) and hopes are even higher for its success. It's a fucking great record. I'm listening to it right now. Austin boys, too.
Also, a bagillion great shows coming through town for summer (even though it's still 55 degrees here, "summer" I will call it!). A ton of free shows, and even more cheap shows. My little date book is full!
The boy and I are still doing well. Taking a step back but still talking nearly every night and hanging out about once a week. It's hard to know what to do about him. There's that part of me that feels like he'll never understand me like I know I can be understood, the part of me that feels he's so simple in both a bad and good way. Then there's that part of me that knows that it would be detrimental for me to have that crazy, oversensitive artist that I think I'm looking for in my life. I imagine I want someone who is sometimes crazy in the head like me but I also realize how self-destructive it could be. And he, he is so stable, so infuriatingly normal...but he balances me. He doesn't "get" me but he listens. He is neverendingly patient and calm and there.
So that's it. Little bits of my life in New York. Home to Texas next week! Days on the beach! SunSunSun! Hot, humid, heavy ocean air! It's a welcome break.
So mine:
I turned in notice for work yesterday. I'm so tired of that place, the (literally) criminal behavior, being paid under the table, having 30% of my tips taken away each night to support my boss's BMW (and probably coke) habit. And dealing with his leering and glares and too strong cologne every single night. And the incompetent management. And waitresses hired only because they are tall and thin but all barely sharing half a brain between them. So goodbye negative energy! Goodbye shitty tips! Goodbye crowded, tiny cafe that surely violates fire code every night! I have nothing lined up...but my life seems to work best that way. As the only cool waitress and I talked about last night, when you remove that negative entity that surrounds and blocks you, possibilities are allowed to come near you again. New Age-y shite, I'm sure...but I believe it, regardless.
The internship is still rockin' my socks. I was actually invited to a lunch "meeting" the other day, which basically involved the guys answering their cells and saying, "I can't talk, I'm in the middle of an important meeting" and then resuming their banter/diatribe about music or friends or whatever while slurping down cheap (but good) cafe food in SoHo that they charge to the company card. It sounds ridiculous, but I was just flattered to be invited along. I have a terrible tendency towards needing to be accepted by people I imagine would never find me acceptable and then being ecstatic and warmed by whatever scraps they throw my way. I don't know if it's the same in this case, but it feels familiar. It makes me think of a summer just one year ago.
Other positives about the i-ship is that the little online promotion I've been working on is going really well. Enthusiasm is high for the record that is being released (June 17th) and hopes are even higher for its success. It's a fucking great record. I'm listening to it right now. Austin boys, too.
Also, a bagillion great shows coming through town for summer (even though it's still 55 degrees here, "summer" I will call it!). A ton of free shows, and even more cheap shows. My little date book is full!
The boy and I are still doing well. Taking a step back but still talking nearly every night and hanging out about once a week. It's hard to know what to do about him. There's that part of me that feels like he'll never understand me like I know I can be understood, the part of me that feels he's so simple in both a bad and good way. Then there's that part of me that knows that it would be detrimental for me to have that crazy, oversensitive artist that I think I'm looking for in my life. I imagine I want someone who is sometimes crazy in the head like me but I also realize how self-destructive it could be. And he, he is so stable, so infuriatingly normal...but he balances me. He doesn't "get" me but he listens. He is neverendingly patient and calm and there.
So that's it. Little bits of my life in New York. Home to Texas next week! Days on the beach! SunSunSun! Hot, humid, heavy ocean air! It's a welcome break.