The Sweets I Can Never Give
I was supposed to give you some chocolates today... whoppers -- an entire box of it. Don't ask me why. It's just that when i saw it, i immediately thought of you. Which is a pretty silly reason because i thought about you during the entire 18 days of my vacation.
It's weird, really. I came to school this morning with a terrible headache, in fact i still have one; and yet when i was about to leave the house,just a few feet away from the door, you once again crossed my mind. Headache or no headache, late or not for Fr. David's class, I just had to get the Whoppers from the fridge to give to you.
You shared some with me once you know... Whoppers, I mean. But you probably won't remember.
Well anyway, they're still here with me, right beside my mouse while I write this entry. The thing is, they're not supposed to be here... They're supposed to be with you. Just as i believe I'm supposed to be with you. But I'm not and the whoppers aren't either.
Maybe I'd just like to say sorry, not only because i prevented you from enjoying something i know you'd definitely enjoy; but also for being such a coward.
I'm really sorry... I just can't do it.
When i was in the states, I promised myself that I'd tell you... tell you the truth. And I'm not one who breaks promises. So you can only imagine how disappointed I am in myself right now. Well, not as disappointed as you'd be towards me if you found out. Whoppers din yun, diba?
Now, I don't know what to do with this box. I opened it already... Maybe to prevent myself from actually giving it to you. I mean, I can't even finish it. How can I? It's too much. And whoppers are meant to be shared, just as what you did with me before.
I'm sorry.
I'll make up for it, don't worry... It's just that right now, i don't know how. I just hope that for the moment, you can do without the whoppers. Oh, why can't I be like most other guys who find it so easy to give chocolates?!
Well, you deserve more than me anyway... You deserve more than Whoppers. You deserve Ferrero Rocher or something like that.
Anyway, I'm sorry... For you, and for myself most especially.
The sweets continue to stay with me alone...
It's weird, really. I came to school this morning with a terrible headache, in fact i still have one; and yet when i was about to leave the house,just a few feet away from the door, you once again crossed my mind. Headache or no headache, late or not for Fr. David's class, I just had to get the Whoppers from the fridge to give to you.
You shared some with me once you know... Whoppers, I mean. But you probably won't remember.
Well anyway, they're still here with me, right beside my mouse while I write this entry. The thing is, they're not supposed to be here... They're supposed to be with you. Just as i believe I'm supposed to be with you. But I'm not and the whoppers aren't either.
Maybe I'd just like to say sorry, not only because i prevented you from enjoying something i know you'd definitely enjoy; but also for being such a coward.
I'm really sorry... I just can't do it.
When i was in the states, I promised myself that I'd tell you... tell you the truth. And I'm not one who breaks promises. So you can only imagine how disappointed I am in myself right now. Well, not as disappointed as you'd be towards me if you found out. Whoppers din yun, diba?
Now, I don't know what to do with this box. I opened it already... Maybe to prevent myself from actually giving it to you. I mean, I can't even finish it. How can I? It's too much. And whoppers are meant to be shared, just as what you did with me before.
I'm sorry.
I'll make up for it, don't worry... It's just that right now, i don't know how. I just hope that for the moment, you can do without the whoppers. Oh, why can't I be like most other guys who find it so easy to give chocolates?!
Well, you deserve more than me anyway... You deserve more than Whoppers. You deserve Ferrero Rocher or something like that.
Anyway, I'm sorry... For you, and for myself most especially.
The sweets continue to stay with me alone...