Season 2, Episode 21. Beginnings

[blue_shields]

[Sky writes slowly and carefully with a lot of pauses.]I know it may seem odd to introduce myself when I've been in Edensphere for more than two years, but I kind of feel like it's necessary

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[cathar_jedi]

It is [pause] a good effort, I think.

[blue_shields]

Yeah. I just think that- it's not healthy to stay unhappy. Not for a long time.

[cathar_jedi]

This is probably so. I - myself, I spend perhaps too long in sorrow. But it cannot always hold.

[blue_shields]

Not always. Even when it seems like it will never end.

[cathar_jedi]

No.

With time, things change, even if it is only ourselves. Even if it is only that some kind of scab or callus has formed. Even scars ache at times, and things are never as they were before.

But they go on. Life does not respect these things as we wish it would. Duties still must be done.

[blue_shields]

Duties are always important to be done.

[cathar_jedi]

Yes.

[pause]

Perhaps it is only I, but...

[Longer pause. She's not sure why she's writing this, when it's something she's never said to anyone.]

There may come a point where, for a moment, you forget, and there is joy. And this feels like a betrayal.

It is not. I hope it is not.

[blue_shields]

[Pentap.]

I've felt like that a lot since Inara disappeared.

[cathar_jedi]

I wish it were otherwise.

[...she means the feeling of betrayal, not moments of joy.]

Grief is not logical, and it is not simple, and it comes and goes in ways that cannot always be predicted.

Only know that you are not alone. That often does not help very much - and yet there have been times when it has made all the difference.

[blue_shields]

I do, as well.

It does help me now, though. I felt alone after she left, because for a while... I didn't really need anybody else.

[cathar_jedi]

I wish that I had better advice to give.

[blue_shields]

I appreciate the attempt.