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I note that I am still not writing much of anything.
I bought myself a little birthday present, which should arrive soonish, I hope. I'll put up a link or a photo or something when it gets here. Yes, the new computer (which I adore, by the way, for making raid nights actually playable again) was really my birthday gift, but I don't get myself much in the way of indulgent little things these days.
Stayed a little late last night talking with a fellow graduate student who's been having a hard time with depression. It was good to actually talk, not just for her to hear that other students really do go through similar things, but to get me out of how closed-off I've been. The last couple of weeks have been difficult in that regard again, and I don't quite understand why since there's been so much blissful goodness along the way, and I really need to make sure I'm in a good place going into the rest of the semester and the summer.
Speaking of blissful goodness - ooh, boy.
Somewhere along the way I need to find my passion for things again. I think that's the real absence, right now. No, not -that- kind of passion, you pervs. I mean passion for life, for the things I do. I'm still stuck in a lot of WoW-playing ('a lot' may be an understatement), and I'm neglecting basic things like keeping up the house, but it's not just the basics I want. I want to be -excited- about things. I want to decorate my house, or learn to garden (pre-emptively, yes), or even just immerse myself in music and books and the like. I want to feel like my life contains a symphony of things, rather than the one-note tune it seems to be right now. It's a good tune, don't get me wrong, but I want more.
Okay, I'm going to avoid any sort of progressive melancholy and dissatisfaction and get some work done. I'm trying to be more diligent with planning my time and staying on top of things, even if I'm not really being all that proactive yet.
I bought myself a little birthday present, which should arrive soonish, I hope. I'll put up a link or a photo or something when it gets here. Yes, the new computer (which I adore, by the way, for making raid nights actually playable again) was really my birthday gift, but I don't get myself much in the way of indulgent little things these days.
Stayed a little late last night talking with a fellow graduate student who's been having a hard time with depression. It was good to actually talk, not just for her to hear that other students really do go through similar things, but to get me out of how closed-off I've been. The last couple of weeks have been difficult in that regard again, and I don't quite understand why since there's been so much blissful goodness along the way, and I really need to make sure I'm in a good place going into the rest of the semester and the summer.
Speaking of blissful goodness - ooh, boy.
Somewhere along the way I need to find my passion for things again. I think that's the real absence, right now. No, not -that- kind of passion, you pervs. I mean passion for life, for the things I do. I'm still stuck in a lot of WoW-playing ('a lot' may be an understatement), and I'm neglecting basic things like keeping up the house, but it's not just the basics I want. I want to be -excited- about things. I want to decorate my house, or learn to garden (pre-emptively, yes), or even just immerse myself in music and books and the like. I want to feel like my life contains a symphony of things, rather than the one-note tune it seems to be right now. It's a good tune, don't get me wrong, but I want more.
Okay, I'm going to avoid any sort of progressive melancholy and dissatisfaction and get some work done. I'm trying to be more diligent with planning my time and staying on top of things, even if I'm not really being all that proactive yet.