Discovery in Relationships
Hey peeps, I know it's been a long time since I've posted anything, so here goes.
It's been an interesting couple of months.. Things between Jeremy and I have seemed to deteriorate, since I will not have seen him in a week come tomorrow, which also happens to be his birthday.. and on the 13th, he's going on a family vacation to Hawaii for a week.. lucky him.. and Marty too!! damn him, lol j/k.. :) That means I'll have more time to hang out with Jason.. my new friend :) heehee! No, Jason and I are not dating.. me & Jeremy are still together but I've been thinking about breaking up since really, I'm not happy unless I'm around people..meaning more than one! lol We just don't do much together anymore and I need to be stimulated by new people, like Jason. We've known each other for the past 3 years or so.. before he got married anyways. And that was before I really had much interest in Jeremy. At that time, Jason and I would harmlessly flirt back and forth.. I guess.. well anyways, I had a small crush on him, as I'm sure Tracy did too cuz she said he liked him and teased him a bit. Anyways.. yeah, so one day when I was checking my e-mail I get a message from MySpace saying that Jason had sent me a message, so I go and check who the hell it is.. and when I saw who it was I could barely contain myself! I had to look twice to make sure it was my car nut/lot friend Jason and not some hobo trying to add me. I was practically in tears when I saw that pic of him. I was like 'omg it's Jason!!' and I was laughing and crying the whole time. It was unbelievable. I mean, dude.. we hadn't really talked in like 2 years anyway.. it's probably been longer than that, but I dunno for sure. Well.. we started talking and he told me about all the shit going on for him n I was like wow dude.. cuz I knew he was married and the last thing I heard was he & his wife were expecting, but she later lost the baby.. which is so sad, but yeah.. things just got really complicated and her family tried to screw him left & right and he just couldn't take it anymore. So yeah, he's "sorta single" now. Technically, he's still married but he's getting a divorce..which really sucks.. but yeah, it kinda had to happen I suppose. Things just didn't work out. Yeah...Anyways, so we've been talking for 2 weeks now and hanging out for the past few days. And no, Jeremy doesn't know anything about this.. so yeah, should prove interesting when it does come up. I had a friend of mine tell me that he (Jeremy) might get kinda jealous and break things off because of that, but Jason and I are FRIENDS! Wouldn't he understand that?! I mean.. damn, it's not like I made out with him at his place or something. Hell no, we're friends, that's all. Besides, it would be kinda wrong since he's still married.. so yeah, that would be really weird. :/
You wanna know what's been weird though? The night before last, Jason came over and hung out with me and Richard until like 3:30 in the morning.. and I kept seeing visions of us kissing n stuff, which I wasn't comfortable with.. so I closed my eyes, and where his heart would be, I saw a large pink area surrounded by a small area of purple. Do you think maybe I saw his heart's aura or something like that? I'm not sure what else to call it. I know when you're referring to chakras, they say green or pink is associated with the heart chakra. So you tell me.. am I a natural aura reader or something? Cuz normally I haven't been doing that.. but I dunno. Anyways... oh yeah, he got rid of his black Celica, which I thought was a shame. But with the insurance and police stopping him all the time, it got to be a hassle. So now he's got an old clunker of a truck, it's fine. Maybe I'm weird, but I notice the clutch handle moves all the time when we're stopped somewhere. Haha, makes me think of something else..but I won't get into that, lol :D Sorry, my mind was wandering... haha. Umm yeah, so Jason's pretty cool. I'm so glad we got to hang out those two nights.. his place is nice, it could use a little work but what do you expect with two guys? Lol :P Another thing I forgot to mention, he and his roommate both have animals.. a cat and a snake. The snake is Jason's and the cat is the other guys' pet (even though he's not supposed to have him). Ash is pretty cool, but a little obnoxious. Kinda reminds me of my oldest brother Troy. But he's cool.. even thanked me for the extra cat food, toys and flea drops (since my kitty's gone AWOL - I think someone took her.. someone stole my kitty!!). I was kinda surprised by his gesture, but pleased with it. :)
Um oh yeah.. last night was a bitch, did I say that? I guess not. Anyways, guess it was just PMS creeping up on me cuz all this shit happened and I was getting pissed, like I was about to blow my top. First it was waiting in line for my prescription for like 25 minutes... some slapnutz misplaced this lady's medicine and that look a while.. then they had to "try to process my prescription card" and I didn't get shit off of it (meaning no discount), so I'm thinkin of getting rid of the s.o.b. It's pretty much useless really, I mean I got like $2 off my contact lens prescription. What a rip off.. and a waste of time! And money, on top of that. Fuck.. anywayz.. then I went to Walmart with mom to get a few things.. well, then I had to wait at least another 20 minutes to get checked out.. and then our freezer door didn't wanna shut, so that kind of annoyed me too. So I ended up hitting the fuckin thing and it didn't really help much.. so I went to bed a little p.o'ed and woke up that way too. :/
Cuz of all those things, plus I really wanted to talk with Jason last night, but he went to bed earlier than usual.. so I didn't really have too many people available to talk to last night. But he called this morning and said he was helping his friend Ben move and that he'd call me when the job was done, hoping (as I am) that it won't take all day. But anyways, everything just kinda got to me last night. Must be the fuckin PMS crap.. Plus my brother's girlfriend kept calling the house around 5 AM and I was like 'fuckin eh man, I'm trying to sleep!!' Anyways sorry to be so bitchy but yeah.. I wanted to tell ya what happened, so there it is. Yeah, I think my brother and his girlfriend are gonna break up cuz she's been really paranoid about shit lately and it's really pissing him off. Like she stole his picture of him & his friend Cara, and another one of him with some Nopi racing chicks. To sum up my feelings, I think she needs to get her head examined, or at least chill the fuck out.. nobody's gonna fuckin steal him from her, god damn it.. she is so freakin weird. Anywho, I gotta go now & get ready for work.. Yay *sarcasm* :P byes!!
It's been an interesting couple of months.. Things between Jeremy and I have seemed to deteriorate, since I will not have seen him in a week come tomorrow, which also happens to be his birthday.. and on the 13th, he's going on a family vacation to Hawaii for a week.. lucky him.. and Marty too!! damn him, lol j/k.. :) That means I'll have more time to hang out with Jason.. my new friend :) heehee! No, Jason and I are not dating.. me & Jeremy are still together but I've been thinking about breaking up since really, I'm not happy unless I'm around people..meaning more than one! lol We just don't do much together anymore and I need to be stimulated by new people, like Jason. We've known each other for the past 3 years or so.. before he got married anyways. And that was before I really had much interest in Jeremy. At that time, Jason and I would harmlessly flirt back and forth.. I guess.. well anyways, I had a small crush on him, as I'm sure Tracy did too cuz she said he liked him and teased him a bit. Anyways.. yeah, so one day when I was checking my e-mail I get a message from MySpace saying that Jason had sent me a message, so I go and check who the hell it is.. and when I saw who it was I could barely contain myself! I had to look twice to make sure it was my car nut/lot friend Jason and not some hobo trying to add me. I was practically in tears when I saw that pic of him. I was like 'omg it's Jason!!' and I was laughing and crying the whole time. It was unbelievable. I mean, dude.. we hadn't really talked in like 2 years anyway.. it's probably been longer than that, but I dunno for sure. Well.. we started talking and he told me about all the shit going on for him n I was like wow dude.. cuz I knew he was married and the last thing I heard was he & his wife were expecting, but she later lost the baby.. which is so sad, but yeah.. things just got really complicated and her family tried to screw him left & right and he just couldn't take it anymore. So yeah, he's "sorta single" now. Technically, he's still married but he's getting a divorce..which really sucks.. but yeah, it kinda had to happen I suppose. Things just didn't work out. Yeah...Anyways, so we've been talking for 2 weeks now and hanging out for the past few days. And no, Jeremy doesn't know anything about this.. so yeah, should prove interesting when it does come up. I had a friend of mine tell me that he (Jeremy) might get kinda jealous and break things off because of that, but Jason and I are FRIENDS! Wouldn't he understand that?! I mean.. damn, it's not like I made out with him at his place or something. Hell no, we're friends, that's all. Besides, it would be kinda wrong since he's still married.. so yeah, that would be really weird. :/
You wanna know what's been weird though? The night before last, Jason came over and hung out with me and Richard until like 3:30 in the morning.. and I kept seeing visions of us kissing n stuff, which I wasn't comfortable with.. so I closed my eyes, and where his heart would be, I saw a large pink area surrounded by a small area of purple. Do you think maybe I saw his heart's aura or something like that? I'm not sure what else to call it. I know when you're referring to chakras, they say green or pink is associated with the heart chakra. So you tell me.. am I a natural aura reader or something? Cuz normally I haven't been doing that.. but I dunno. Anyways... oh yeah, he got rid of his black Celica, which I thought was a shame. But with the insurance and police stopping him all the time, it got to be a hassle. So now he's got an old clunker of a truck, it's fine. Maybe I'm weird, but I notice the clutch handle moves all the time when we're stopped somewhere. Haha, makes me think of something else..but I won't get into that, lol :D Sorry, my mind was wandering... haha. Umm yeah, so Jason's pretty cool. I'm so glad we got to hang out those two nights.. his place is nice, it could use a little work but what do you expect with two guys? Lol :P Another thing I forgot to mention, he and his roommate both have animals.. a cat and a snake. The snake is Jason's and the cat is the other guys' pet (even though he's not supposed to have him). Ash is pretty cool, but a little obnoxious. Kinda reminds me of my oldest brother Troy. But he's cool.. even thanked me for the extra cat food, toys and flea drops (since my kitty's gone AWOL - I think someone took her.. someone stole my kitty!!). I was kinda surprised by his gesture, but pleased with it. :)
Um oh yeah.. last night was a bitch, did I say that? I guess not. Anyways, guess it was just PMS creeping up on me cuz all this shit happened and I was getting pissed, like I was about to blow my top. First it was waiting in line for my prescription for like 25 minutes... some slapnutz misplaced this lady's medicine and that look a while.. then they had to "try to process my prescription card" and I didn't get shit off of it (meaning no discount), so I'm thinkin of getting rid of the s.o.b. It's pretty much useless really, I mean I got like $2 off my contact lens prescription. What a rip off.. and a waste of time! And money, on top of that. Fuck.. anywayz.. then I went to Walmart with mom to get a few things.. well, then I had to wait at least another 20 minutes to get checked out.. and then our freezer door didn't wanna shut, so that kind of annoyed me too. So I ended up hitting the fuckin thing and it didn't really help much.. so I went to bed a little p.o'ed and woke up that way too. :/
Cuz of all those things, plus I really wanted to talk with Jason last night, but he went to bed earlier than usual.. so I didn't really have too many people available to talk to last night. But he called this morning and said he was helping his friend Ben move and that he'd call me when the job was done, hoping (as I am) that it won't take all day. But anyways, everything just kinda got to me last night. Must be the fuckin PMS crap.. Plus my brother's girlfriend kept calling the house around 5 AM and I was like 'fuckin eh man, I'm trying to sleep!!' Anyways sorry to be so bitchy but yeah.. I wanted to tell ya what happened, so there it is. Yeah, I think my brother and his girlfriend are gonna break up cuz she's been really paranoid about shit lately and it's really pissing him off. Like she stole his picture of him & his friend Cara, and another one of him with some Nopi racing chicks. To sum up my feelings, I think she needs to get her head examined, or at least chill the fuck out.. nobody's gonna fuckin steal him from her, god damn it.. she is so freakin weird. Anywho, I gotta go now & get ready for work.. Yay *sarcasm* :P byes!!