Johnny's Countdown Feelings
I've decided I shouldn't be allowed to watch old Johnny's Countdowns. I spent the past few days watching some of them and every time I see Pi with NEWS or Ryuu-chan with HSJ or Jin with KAT-TUN, I start crying. I shouldn't be crying this much but it hurts you know. It still hurts so much. It's like I had forgotten how painful it is to remember this. Seeing them there just brings me to tears because I see them smiling and it just breaks my heart. I guess even after all this time, I can't let go. I mean, even now, I still remember how heartbreaking it was when Ucchan and Notti left NEWS. At least when I watch Countdown, I can see Ucchan singing. But it really hurts to see Jin, Pi, and Ryuu and how they used to be there with their groups. Pi was in the last one, but I don't even know if Ryuu will ever come back. I'm still praying with all my heart. I miss him so much <3 Like how is it that I'm crying while watching these guys since a song like Love So Sweet. I should be happy but I'm in tears.