well there we have it folks..
a rather depressing dashing, crushing, smashing of the coke can that was my dreams of living in an apartment with jackie and elanor.
they gave me hope for 3 days.. 3 glorious days with hope, then wrenched it away from me violently.
elanor is now moving home (to ontario) for the summer, and jackie is most likely tree planting. they're both leaving me, and it makes me think... well, what was the point of that? all those fun times on outtatown with them, my best and good friends, and now.. now its all over.
i was initially sad, then very angry, and now i am sad again. i was so happy for 3 days, probably the happiest i'd been since.. i dunno, september. and now i have no direction for this summer, and obviously still have no idea what to do next year. im not going to delve into alllll of the details of how living with them could've made my life so freaking SO FREAKING much easier.
sigh.
what am i going to do?
move in with renee and leah? no. move in with andrew? no. move in with anyone in winnipeg? no. i don't want to for my own reasons.
so now i am screwed. ill have to move home, but there is no job for me in selkirk, and i DO NOT want to lose the one i have here.
what on earth am i going to do...
:(
sigh, rantings of my life currently. i do still love you livejournal. and i miss you.
<3
they gave me hope for 3 days.. 3 glorious days with hope, then wrenched it away from me violently.
elanor is now moving home (to ontario) for the summer, and jackie is most likely tree planting. they're both leaving me, and it makes me think... well, what was the point of that? all those fun times on outtatown with them, my best and good friends, and now.. now its all over.
i was initially sad, then very angry, and now i am sad again. i was so happy for 3 days, probably the happiest i'd been since.. i dunno, september. and now i have no direction for this summer, and obviously still have no idea what to do next year. im not going to delve into alllll of the details of how living with them could've made my life so freaking SO FREAKING much easier.
sigh.
what am i going to do?
move in with renee and leah? no. move in with andrew? no. move in with anyone in winnipeg? no. i don't want to for my own reasons.
so now i am screwed. ill have to move home, but there is no job for me in selkirk, and i DO NOT want to lose the one i have here.
what on earth am i going to do...
:(
sigh, rantings of my life currently. i do still love you livejournal. and i miss you.
<3