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so. my brother and my boyfriend are currently on their way to 7-11, probably to talk about me.
it's suddenly become really awkward, and i feel sorry for my brother that his really good friend is into his sister. and its suddenly become actually quite awkward.
but maybe not in a few weeks. i have 2 weeks left till the start of university, where i am to have: moved out into jackie's house, found a job near jackie's place... and organized and moved all my crap, bought a bus pass, cuz who knows how long my car is going to last or if ill use it at all in the city.
*sigh*
i think on monday, im just going to take the entire day to sort out my future, and really really really think about everything, and prepare for the next year.
when it comes to matt... im very happy. its really awkward with my brother around though. josh acts like matt is still his single buddy who he can hang out with all the time, but really, whenever matt is here he just wants to hang out with me..
i dunno. and matt isn't the perfect guy in the world.. but for some reason im a perfectionist when it comes to relationships, and i just need to snap out of it! no one is perfect.. but there is such thing as someone who is right for you. is matt right for me? well... i didn't think so at first, because there are probably not any 2 people in the world that are more different than us... but i think he can really help me when it comes to showing me how to be in a good healthy bf/gf relationship. i mean, he totally put up with me being CRAZY and breaking up with him after a week, and then somehow took me back the next day when i had changed my mind. i think he's good for me.. and good TO me.
yeah, i dunno. i felt like i needed to rant about this, as they both have left the house. so, i think this is a good thing that is making me happy and pretty darn infatuated. my only concern is the need for a balance between time with God and time with Matt... but ill come to that balance soon enough.
so yeah. boredom and posting... and i haven't posted in like, 23 weeks or something. well, im sure this won't be a regular thing, but i do like having this lj account. its good for once in a while- rants.
goodnight.
it's suddenly become really awkward, and i feel sorry for my brother that his really good friend is into his sister. and its suddenly become actually quite awkward.
but maybe not in a few weeks. i have 2 weeks left till the start of university, where i am to have: moved out into jackie's house, found a job near jackie's place... and organized and moved all my crap, bought a bus pass, cuz who knows how long my car is going to last or if ill use it at all in the city.
*sigh*
i think on monday, im just going to take the entire day to sort out my future, and really really really think about everything, and prepare for the next year.
when it comes to matt... im very happy. its really awkward with my brother around though. josh acts like matt is still his single buddy who he can hang out with all the time, but really, whenever matt is here he just wants to hang out with me..
i dunno. and matt isn't the perfect guy in the world.. but for some reason im a perfectionist when it comes to relationships, and i just need to snap out of it! no one is perfect.. but there is such thing as someone who is right for you. is matt right for me? well... i didn't think so at first, because there are probably not any 2 people in the world that are more different than us... but i think he can really help me when it comes to showing me how to be in a good healthy bf/gf relationship. i mean, he totally put up with me being CRAZY and breaking up with him after a week, and then somehow took me back the next day when i had changed my mind. i think he's good for me.. and good TO me.
yeah, i dunno. i felt like i needed to rant about this, as they both have left the house. so, i think this is a good thing that is making me happy and pretty darn infatuated. my only concern is the need for a balance between time with God and time with Matt... but ill come to that balance soon enough.
so yeah. boredom and posting... and i haven't posted in like, 23 weeks or something. well, im sure this won't be a regular thing, but i do like having this lj account. its good for once in a while- rants.
goodnight.