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I need to stop updating I think but I am at work and I might as well put on the illusion that I am working.
Now that I have to do this whole moving on thing I have been thinking about the past. The time was obviously amazing and all but I can only think about the times that were hard and the times we didnt spend together. Like my birthday when I wanted to go out with the guys but at your expense, I think now how stupid I was and how i should have spent it with you. The time when you invited me home to go to the Dali exhibit, i wanted to go but I chose not to and I was sooooo stupid. Now that I cant say how much I love you and how much you mean to me I regret every second i didnt tell you before because I dont think you will really know.
Each day has felt like a week long and I am just so confused. I just wish you hadnt deleted that picture from your webshots, I know we arent together but I dont want you to forget about us. It makes me worried that you threw out the letters i wrote you, or the jewelry box, or the pairs of shorts that are mine. I dont want to be erased and i dont want to be ruled out.
Still thinking about all this, I think it can and will happen again, otherwise how are you gonna watch the next season of the L word
Now that I have to do this whole moving on thing I have been thinking about the past. The time was obviously amazing and all but I can only think about the times that were hard and the times we didnt spend together. Like my birthday when I wanted to go out with the guys but at your expense, I think now how stupid I was and how i should have spent it with you. The time when you invited me home to go to the Dali exhibit, i wanted to go but I chose not to and I was sooooo stupid. Now that I cant say how much I love you and how much you mean to me I regret every second i didnt tell you before because I dont think you will really know.
Each day has felt like a week long and I am just so confused. I just wish you hadnt deleted that picture from your webshots, I know we arent together but I dont want you to forget about us. It makes me worried that you threw out the letters i wrote you, or the jewelry box, or the pairs of shorts that are mine. I dont want to be erased and i dont want to be ruled out.
Still thinking about all this, I think it can and will happen again, otherwise how are you gonna watch the next season of the L word