Damnit
I keep wanting to be depressed. Well, not WANTING to be depressed but something will happen and I go in that direction... I'm seriously trying to fight it though, Arguing with all those damn insecurities. It's really hard tho... cause even when I argue with myself and I know how great I am and such I cant help but compare myself to others and feel inadequate and then I get sad and depressed and I tell myself that all those thoughts and fears I'm having aren't true... it's just hard tho. Whenever I start to get depressed and sad and such I try to distract myself with something/someone else... and sometimes that works but I cant help but feel I might be burying my emotions in some way. I really want to talk about it with someone and have them tell me I'm being silly for having these fears.. but I just don't feel like I can talk to any of them (my friends, I mean) for starters I think I'd end up crying because I cant control my dam emotions like that... and I just don't think they'd get it and I don't want to seem whiny and shit, which whenever I go over it in my head it all seems like such stupid ass trivial shit that I really shouldn't be worrying about and I shouldn't be making myself doubt myself based on how another persons life goes...
Why do I always feel SO inadequate to almost everyone else? No matter how hard I try and cant help but be that way.... I hate having ANY insecurities about anything!
ARG!!!!
I give up on trying to successfully formulate my words without sounding like a whiny dumb ass.
Good Night.
Why do I always feel SO inadequate to almost everyone else? No matter how hard I try and cant help but be that way.... I hate having ANY insecurities about anything!
ARG!!!!
I give up on trying to successfully formulate my words without sounding like a whiny dumb ass.
Good Night.