Hyper cont'd....
I'd deal with her hyperactivity a lot better if my own energy levels weren't low right now....
I started putting on weight in weird areas, stomach, neck, arms and shoulders. I started looking too much like a girlfriend who did steroids in College after deciding to become a professional body builder. I have not been eating more than usual. I did NOT gain weight in my neck and shoulders even when a lot heavier. thin neck and shoulders seem to be a family trait, my Mom was 80 pounds heavier and several sizes bigger without much face, neck and shoulders gain. Several of my cousins are the way. I have always been that way as well. I GOT made fun of for having a big ass not a double chin.
So, I've been freaking out about this. A lot of the clothes I've had out don't fit at the moment so I keep going up in sizes. (I'm still not as big as I was during my 1st marriage or as big as Mom despite being taller.) So I pulled a box of clothes I was wearing about the time I got engaged. I've not opened the box in years. Everything fit. The tighter tops were tight in the arms.
I started looking closely at some of the clothes that literally went from great fit to no fit in about two weeks.... one of my favorite shirts I've had since my engagement had darts added in the back right at the ass. It also looked like it had been shortened a couple of inches. That's what I seem to be dealing with.
On top of it, I can't take a good picture. The husband has almost completely stopped taking pictures of me. I spent ALL of my life being extremely photogenic even at bigger than I am now. I should at least get a few good pictures, and my neck and jawline should not look like a 70 year old woman.
We both cut back on our diet, we almost ALWAYS split meals when out. I tend to pick lower calorie items. The husband has lost most of his tiny tummy. I don't change. I am still nursing at night which is a daily loss of about 200 calories. I eat out ONCE and splurge and puff up like a puffer-fish. I run up and down stairs ALL DAY long most days chasing my hyper-kid. Even on a starvation diet I should be losing weight.
I WAS losing weight my first year here getting down to a healthy size 10 on about the same diet and NURSING. At the beginning of 2012 I started losing more weight and fitting into a couple of size 9 items. I've been shooting for a size 4 to 6 which is what I was at University. ALL of this weight gain from a small 10 to now has happened in 6 months since my arrest. I've fluctuated between a 10 and 12 for the past 10 years.
I've seriously wondered if I died and entered some world where the laws of nature don't apply. I started suspecting steroids in our "out" food because of where I seem to be gaining weight. So, we've been almost completely avoiding "out" food. I was looking better in the face, neck and shoulders until a couple of days ago when the hubby brought home McDonald's for lunch. I ate a Kids Meal with a large drink and my neck puffed up as bad as before. I'm starting to suspect a food allergy.
I can't run because of my knee injury.
Today's Menu -
For Lunch:
Breakfast TV dinner snack - 300 calories
Tea with 1 Tablespoon of sugar
ONE BITE the size of 1 Tablespoon of chocolate cheesecake
12 oz Coca Cola - 140 to 200 calories
Afternoon Snack:
1 cheese stick = to 1 ounce of Cheese
1 ounce of Bree Cheese about 220 calories
2 small slices of hard salami less than 100 calories
10 Tortilla chips - 140 calories
Dinner
1 cup of canned baked beans with 1 slice of turkey bacon on top 280 to 320 calories
1 cup of boiled turnips NO butter - 20 calories
1/2 baked chicken cordon blue = to about 1 ounce of chicken and 1 tablespoon of cheese plus breading - ??
1/2 - 1 cup of canned mandarin oranges in light syrup - shared- 100 to 140 calories
2 glasses of tap water
1 cup of tea with 1 Tablespoon of sugar
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I'm calculating at less than or right at 1500 calories. Add to that a subtraction of 200 calories for nursing and I'm at or below the optimal calorie intake for losing weight and have very little energy. I've spent the last 10 years eating a 2000 to 2500 calorie diet plus excercise. My one weight gain episode was while eating out 3 to 4 times a week at high calorie locations...and I only gained about 5-10 pounds 'cause I was walking or rollerblading 2 times a week. I've never been a big fruit or vegi eater and do take vitamins occasionally. Any more decrease in my calories and I'm going to be bed-ridden.
Rollerblading is out until after I have surgery. Something that's not going to happen as long as I feel insecure about my kids future.
What am I missing????
I started putting on weight in weird areas, stomach, neck, arms and shoulders. I started looking too much like a girlfriend who did steroids in College after deciding to become a professional body builder. I have not been eating more than usual. I did NOT gain weight in my neck and shoulders even when a lot heavier. thin neck and shoulders seem to be a family trait, my Mom was 80 pounds heavier and several sizes bigger without much face, neck and shoulders gain. Several of my cousins are the way. I have always been that way as well. I GOT made fun of for having a big ass not a double chin.
So, I've been freaking out about this. A lot of the clothes I've had out don't fit at the moment so I keep going up in sizes. (I'm still not as big as I was during my 1st marriage or as big as Mom despite being taller.) So I pulled a box of clothes I was wearing about the time I got engaged. I've not opened the box in years. Everything fit. The tighter tops were tight in the arms.
I started looking closely at some of the clothes that literally went from great fit to no fit in about two weeks.... one of my favorite shirts I've had since my engagement had darts added in the back right at the ass. It also looked like it had been shortened a couple of inches. That's what I seem to be dealing with.
On top of it, I can't take a good picture. The husband has almost completely stopped taking pictures of me. I spent ALL of my life being extremely photogenic even at bigger than I am now. I should at least get a few good pictures, and my neck and jawline should not look like a 70 year old woman.
We both cut back on our diet, we almost ALWAYS split meals when out. I tend to pick lower calorie items. The husband has lost most of his tiny tummy. I don't change. I am still nursing at night which is a daily loss of about 200 calories. I eat out ONCE and splurge and puff up like a puffer-fish. I run up and down stairs ALL DAY long most days chasing my hyper-kid. Even on a starvation diet I should be losing weight.
I WAS losing weight my first year here getting down to a healthy size 10 on about the same diet and NURSING. At the beginning of 2012 I started losing more weight and fitting into a couple of size 9 items. I've been shooting for a size 4 to 6 which is what I was at University. ALL of this weight gain from a small 10 to now has happened in 6 months since my arrest. I've fluctuated between a 10 and 12 for the past 10 years.
I've seriously wondered if I died and entered some world where the laws of nature don't apply. I started suspecting steroids in our "out" food because of where I seem to be gaining weight. So, we've been almost completely avoiding "out" food. I was looking better in the face, neck and shoulders until a couple of days ago when the hubby brought home McDonald's for lunch. I ate a Kids Meal with a large drink and my neck puffed up as bad as before. I'm starting to suspect a food allergy.
I can't run because of my knee injury.
Today's Menu -
For Lunch:
Breakfast TV dinner snack - 300 calories
Tea with 1 Tablespoon of sugar
ONE BITE the size of 1 Tablespoon of chocolate cheesecake
12 oz Coca Cola - 140 to 200 calories
Afternoon Snack:
1 cheese stick = to 1 ounce of Cheese
1 ounce of Bree Cheese about 220 calories
2 small slices of hard salami less than 100 calories
10 Tortilla chips - 140 calories
Dinner
1 cup of canned baked beans with 1 slice of turkey bacon on top 280 to 320 calories
1 cup of boiled turnips NO butter - 20 calories
1/2 baked chicken cordon blue = to about 1 ounce of chicken and 1 tablespoon of cheese plus breading - ??
1/2 - 1 cup of canned mandarin oranges in light syrup - shared- 100 to 140 calories
2 glasses of tap water
1 cup of tea with 1 Tablespoon of sugar
________________
I'm calculating at less than or right at 1500 calories. Add to that a subtraction of 200 calories for nursing and I'm at or below the optimal calorie intake for losing weight and have very little energy. I've spent the last 10 years eating a 2000 to 2500 calorie diet plus excercise. My one weight gain episode was while eating out 3 to 4 times a week at high calorie locations...and I only gained about 5-10 pounds 'cause I was walking or rollerblading 2 times a week. I've never been a big fruit or vegi eater and do take vitamins occasionally. Any more decrease in my calories and I'm going to be bed-ridden.
Rollerblading is out until after I have surgery. Something that's not going to happen as long as I feel insecure about my kids future.
What am I missing????