How could this happen to me...
Update:
Yesterday, me and some Jaspers gave Mandi a surprise party a month earlier than her actual B-Day
It was hosted @ Time Squares Applebee's
It was a good time seeing some of the Jaspers =D
A few weren't able to make it who I was hoping to see, but I'll see them 'nother day hopefully =)
Same day in the night ;however, I found out more than a book full of devestating Information:
It had to have been the worst things/actions I was ever informed of in my life
And it all told from one person
Apparently SEVERAL Jaspers/Horanites knew(known) about it, but were either afraid to tell or were forced not to tell
It was all happening behind my back without knowing for a 3 month span (perhaps even longer than that)
My Stomach has dropped
My Heart has been racing for life. Now it is shattered and molten from it racing soo much
All the playbacks in my mind are of a never-ending nightmare that never leaves my mind at any given point
Even when something good is happening, a playback comes to ruin it all
The images are burned in my eyes and it stings like hell
The things I recalled being said to me are a screech of knives slashing on a chalkboard within my ears
I'm still in this horrid state
I can't bear/believe the news
This shall burn me alive for quite sometime
It has become a burden like no other ever experienced, period.
I cannot bear to tell right now, it hurts to even think of typing or saying it
I probably won't be able to bear saying it for sometime
Yesterday, me and some Jaspers gave Mandi a surprise party a month earlier than her actual B-Day
It was hosted @ Time Squares Applebee's
It was a good time seeing some of the Jaspers =D
A few weren't able to make it who I was hoping to see, but I'll see them 'nother day hopefully =)
Same day in the night ;however, I found out more than a book full of devestating Information:
It had to have been the worst things/actions I was ever informed of in my life
And it all told from one person
Apparently SEVERAL Jaspers/Horanites knew(known) about it, but were either afraid to tell or were forced not to tell
It was all happening behind my back without knowing for a 3 month span (perhaps even longer than that)
My Stomach has dropped
My Heart has been racing for life. Now it is shattered and molten from it racing soo much
All the playbacks in my mind are of a never-ending nightmare that never leaves my mind at any given point
Even when something good is happening, a playback comes to ruin it all
The images are burned in my eyes and it stings like hell
The things I recalled being said to me are a screech of knives slashing on a chalkboard within my ears
I'm still in this horrid state
I can't bear/believe the news
This shall burn me alive for quite sometime
It has become a burden like no other ever experienced, period.
I cannot bear to tell right now, it hurts to even think of typing or saying it
I probably won't be able to bear saying it for sometime