riding on the metro.
so, im sitting here at the computer. alone, cold, and bored. i didnt go to bed until like 2 or 2:30 this morning. and i didnt really want to go to bed then. mom drugged me up on penicillan and tylenol. i had to force myself to sleep. i think mixing those two things together didnt help my situation..my nose hurts from where i have blown it so much...but anyways..enough about that shit...now here i am. i want to do something today. it sucks when you have your license..and your own car...but yet you cant think of anything to do. everyone is prolly still at church. thats something i havent done in a long time. but becca is going somewhere with matt today --> lucky ass. i wish i had someone that i could go do things with all the time. but i dont. so fuck it. emilys at work. i dunno bout mal and goose. so, i will prolly just stay home and mope around all day and feel sorry for myself. we dont have school tomarro and im so freaking glad. i will prolly sit around and do nothing tomarro too..hum..im on msn right now..and no one is online..except for andrew and some girl from texas that i dont have a damn clue as to who she is. but thats ok i guess. but both of their status' say away. so i continue to write in this thing...hoping that what i am saying is actually going somewhere. holy shnikes...i just remembered that in 3 days we are having our first europe trip meeting at school. we get to go to scotland, ireland and london. how crazy is that? well, well...anthony just signed in..maybe he will talk to me..but i doubt it. things just havent been the same between me and him for a long time. and it kills me. i mean i dont like him like that anymore...its been a long time since i have fel like that for him..but i just wish we could have a normal friendship..is that so much to ask. well, my self esteem just dropped like 20 points. i think i will go now.