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It's always times when you get ur emotions high..ur happy..everything is good. Then everything u plan never goes as planned? Why is that?
Im leaving for Vacation at 6. I was SO looking forward to this summer. Now im back feeling like shit because everything i tried to stay away from to give me a good summer hit me head on instead. I tried to work and have money. I tried to keep everything good. I tried to not be in a relationship. I didnt succeed in any of those. My car decides to try to kill me. I have NO money because of the car. I now have no money because i lost my student loan. Which i have to start paying back now. I cant go back to school now. I have nothing goin good for me at all. Call me a baby i dont care. Im tired of being so miserable. The state of NJ sux ass. they wont give me anymore money for stupid reasons. Now my parents have to try to get money for me to finish school. I have to work 2 jobs to try to finish school and get another car. A good guy at my grasp just went away for the summer. So whats good about the summer now?
A vacation where i feel like shit and i have to save every penny and try not to spend? im not gonna have a good time. I dont wanna go. I want to run under my blankets and sleep the misery away.
But you know what will end up happening this summer? I'll drink alot, and get trashed so i'll pretend nothing is bothering me..in the meantime, ill hurt everyone who actually cares about me around me. Why?because thats me.
Sorry for a long pointless bitching entry. I had to get it out. See you in a couple weeks..i might be home early though. I dunno..byeee
Im leaving for Vacation at 6. I was SO looking forward to this summer. Now im back feeling like shit because everything i tried to stay away from to give me a good summer hit me head on instead. I tried to work and have money. I tried to keep everything good. I tried to not be in a relationship. I didnt succeed in any of those. My car decides to try to kill me. I have NO money because of the car. I now have no money because i lost my student loan. Which i have to start paying back now. I cant go back to school now. I have nothing goin good for me at all. Call me a baby i dont care. Im tired of being so miserable. The state of NJ sux ass. they wont give me anymore money for stupid reasons. Now my parents have to try to get money for me to finish school. I have to work 2 jobs to try to finish school and get another car. A good guy at my grasp just went away for the summer. So whats good about the summer now?
A vacation where i feel like shit and i have to save every penny and try not to spend? im not gonna have a good time. I dont wanna go. I want to run under my blankets and sleep the misery away.
But you know what will end up happening this summer? I'll drink alot, and get trashed so i'll pretend nothing is bothering me..in the meantime, ill hurt everyone who actually cares about me around me. Why?because thats me.
Sorry for a long pointless bitching entry. I had to get it out. See you in a couple weeks..i might be home early though. I dunno..byeee