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i dont know why i am writing this. i dont know why im even keeping this journal up and running. the only reason i havent deleted it is because of the history i have with it and what is recorded in my archives. i think its for that reason above all else that i keep this journal at least on life supprt. i dont want to forget.
its my anniversary today. 4 MONTHS!! ive never had a relationship last this long before, and there are no signs that this one is going to end any time soon, if at all. and quite honestly im more than happy with that. i realized something last night at my homecomming dance as i was stadning and dancing with Jessie, my girlfriend. it doesnt matter if im in love with her or not because im more happy than i have ever been before. and at that very moment, every doubt i had vanished. i may not be in love with her yet. i wouldnt know even if i was. ive never been in love before so i really dont know if this would qualify. but if im not in love with her yet, im damn sure close to it. i do love her. i love her more than i love myself. i would die for her. i would do almost anything for her. maybe that does mean im in love with her or maybe im just close.
I love you, Jessie Lee.
its my anniversary today. 4 MONTHS!! ive never had a relationship last this long before, and there are no signs that this one is going to end any time soon, if at all. and quite honestly im more than happy with that. i realized something last night at my homecomming dance as i was stadning and dancing with Jessie, my girlfriend. it doesnt matter if im in love with her or not because im more happy than i have ever been before. and at that very moment, every doubt i had vanished. i may not be in love with her yet. i wouldnt know even if i was. ive never been in love before so i really dont know if this would qualify. but if im not in love with her yet, im damn sure close to it. i do love her. i love her more than i love myself. i would die for her. i would do almost anything for her. maybe that does mean im in love with her or maybe im just close.
I love you, Jessie Lee.