high points at low tide

[blue_eyes_lie]

at some point
contentment was so much simpler
i never had any trouble
just smiling
sleeping in the sunshine
dreaming in the meant time
but slowly i felt the clouds shift
the sun slipped
and left a shade deeper than i'd ever known
my head is getting harder to hold
my arms are out
my eyes are closed
i can't seem to find the line
and it doesn't have to do with anyone

isn't it wonderful,
the essence of timing?
i'm lost when i'm loved
and lonely when i'm lacking
there is no victory
only moments of light
but soon i find
i can't find
myself again
i can't make myself alive once more

oh i love you
know i mean it when i say it
i don't understand why i have no passion
and my life is wandering aimless
next to the highway
i have tried to jump start
but i can't force myself to love life like before
so if you love me
you'll have to be a little bit patient
let me regain my optimism
let me hate this
and if i never do
i hope you never let me forget it
hold my hand
and push me farther every day
because i need it
motivation and indearment
make me feel it
make me myself again

or do i ask too much?
is this a battle all my own?

if you love me
let me fight it out
and hope the victor
is that girl you met last summer
because if i don't win
i don't have any fall backs
i will simply crumble
and fade into the shadows
into the shadows alone

yes i love you
i love the people with whom i grow
but i don't know if you've noticed
i'm not quite here right now
snap your fingers
shake me out of this
i can't seem to do it by myself
or maybe i'm just not trying hard enough
but my arms are out
and my eyes are closed
i'm trying
to find the old true self i was
and i hope i win
because this is the only shot i've got