one more week...
I need to express my depressed attitude towards life right now. Life sucks. my friends are akwardly avoiding interacting with me. its slightly sad. everyone who watches from the outside is always saying to just forget about them. im sorry i cant just forget about someone. i ad to do that last year cause someone dropped me for his girlfriend. i hate when relationships get fucked. no matter if they are friendships or more than friends.
alot of people know that i have this bubble right. well i thought since people hate being around me cause im always sad i thought maybe if i stop taking my happy pill and if i start to let people get close to me i would be better. nope. hasnt worked. it has actually sucked more. thats too bad.
im kinda tired and people keep telling me i look like a heroin addict cause im so tired. thats a great comment to make towards someone. really. like lets make the whatever is between us even worse.
god why cant things go back to good. i liked it so much when we were all friends and we didnt keep things from eachother. but ill take the blame cause i made it sitty by giving in to him and i also make things shitty cause im always sad. im sorry i just cant control it. but thats why i sit in my room all day and avoid people.. cause i know its just better off that way.
i hate the world right now. it sucks. i miss being happy and being close to my friends.
but only one week till i get to go back to chicago.. adn honestly id rather stay at school with my friends but wait they would rather get away. my friends mean so much to me and i dont know why because i am not too sure its very mutual.
alot of people know that i have this bubble right. well i thought since people hate being around me cause im always sad i thought maybe if i stop taking my happy pill and if i start to let people get close to me i would be better. nope. hasnt worked. it has actually sucked more. thats too bad.
im kinda tired and people keep telling me i look like a heroin addict cause im so tired. thats a great comment to make towards someone. really. like lets make the whatever is between us even worse.
god why cant things go back to good. i liked it so much when we were all friends and we didnt keep things from eachother. but ill take the blame cause i made it sitty by giving in to him and i also make things shitty cause im always sad. im sorry i just cant control it. but thats why i sit in my room all day and avoid people.. cause i know its just better off that way.
i hate the world right now. it sucks. i miss being happy and being close to my friends.
but only one week till i get to go back to chicago.. adn honestly id rather stay at school with my friends but wait they would rather get away. my friends mean so much to me and i dont know why because i am not too sure its very mutual.