man i have a fantabulasly depressing life
I havnt gotten drunk in a while its weird usually i need it to get through the day without being depressed or somethin like that, then i thought what do i have to be sad about aside from the occasional mistake or dumbass thing i do. Life is most definatley what you make it you can just lie around bitch piss and moan about how life has fucked you over in which ive preety much blew the year 2005 on. Well I beleave that year wasnt bad and yeah i did lose someone i prolly would have married by now but sometimes you gotta feel pain just to know your alive. I have so many blessings that i look over and take for granted but i think i will be more apreaciative now that i know i have more to loose than just my life. I do get a little upset with people who think im gonna waste my time by going to filmschool because its something hard to get into well ill never know if i dont try. I think i could make a killer movie about moonshining which i have to give Blake 2% Royalties on cuz he thought about it. Wanna know a weird fact about me when my life is involved im not afraid at all and im not really sure why ive had a gun pointed at me with intent to fire, done many stupid things in my vehicle, and do just about any of the dumbest things you can thing of without an ounce of fear its not that im eager to throw my life away its just im not afraid i suppose. Well this is as much time as im willing to spend on this i have to get ready and go to class in three hours