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As most of you know I am in a current down slump, I've been down ever since I found out that New Orleans was a war torn hell hole version of its former glory. Watching the news and reading magazines just makes it worse because, for once in my life, I couldn't protect everyone and everything that I love. This is the first time that I have felt completely and utterly useless to the people that mean the most to me. Without my family I wouldn't be 1/2 the person I am today. And I cannot do a damn thing for them. Well except for move to Mississippi and help out there. Which is what I am going to do and I'm going to do it very very soon. So if anyone wants to hang out between now and then better give me a call cuz god knows when I'll be back again. So this month has been very shaking and I've spent more days crying this month that I have all year. I guess it's just hard to know that your family is going through the hardest times in their lives and I am not there to hug them and tell them that everything is going to be ok. IT sucks to be sitting here right now on my computer living in my suburban home with all my comforts and know that some of my family is still without basic power and phone lines and air conditioning. I feel like such a spoiled brat right about now. But we're a strong family and if the years of alcoholism haven't killed us yet, nothing will. We'll make it through this one way or another. Thank you guys, my friends because you all have been heaven sent to me, each and every one of you guys has been amazing, understanding and so supportive and for those who gave and continue to give to Red Cross and other relief efforts THANK YOU!! You don't know what it means to the victims but I do because I talk to a few of the victims on a daily basis. I will write again when I know excatly when I am leaving