loneliness

[blue_eyed_vamp9]

ive been asked to wait for someone to change thier entire life before i can be with them. of course no one knows how long it'll take. i have been alone a long time and this just makes me think that im gonna be alone even longer. also, im havin to change at the same time they r, and that makes me think me and her might not ever get together, shits about to change, i graduated high school yesterday, and i have to get a job, and start my life. i care for her very much, but ive been led on twice now, i knwo shes sorry, but i dont want it to happen again, so now i have a decision to make.......a decision i dont want to make but have to i guess...
every time i am interested in a girl, and shes interested in me, somethings always gotta happen to make her ask me to be just friends, i dont know why this always happens and i've been told not to thikn like this but, the only reason i can come up with is, me.