So I update about once a month
Do you ever wish you could go back a few years and change things. Like staying friends with certain people, not getting to friends with others, or just not letting drama break things apart? I don't know. I just wish I would have stayed in touch with a couple people. And that I would have been there more for other people.
Last winter my Mom thinks I went into minor depression [which does not leave this page. i've told no one] and I think I might be falling back into it. I am just sad over so many things and other nothing at some times and nothing I can do can cheer me up. I like force myself to have a social life just so my senior year can be "one to remember".
I don't want to eat dinner with Sarah Beth anymore for homecoming. Annie is having dinner at her house and I would really much rather have dinner there with a bunch of my friends then with just Sarah Beth and Patrick. I mean it will be weird. I know they have broken up and everything but they still flirt. I mean I was over at her house today after we went to lunch and he came over for like 15 minutes or something and I already felt out of place. But she is so excited that I am eating with her and I don't want to let her down or anything. Like I finally feel like she really wants to hang out with me and that she isn't just friends with me because we go to the same youth group. So I don't know what to do. I told Annir I would much rather eat at her house and she said that if I can get out of eating with Sarah Beth then she would love to have me and she really wants me to eat with them. If I'm not gonna have a date for my senior homecoming then I atleast want to eat with all my friends. Ugh, everything is already so messed up.
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