You may not find all that you're after, in the end I hope it doesn't matter.
My anxiety is ramping up again. I've not had anything like this in a loong time. I've not really had time to pick everything apart, but the main stressor I can do nothing more about right now :(
My job is still not paying me the full amount in one payment. Last day of Jan I got 48-ish% of my wages. No word yet on the other just over half. Just checked my work email, which I don't normally do but my boss is terrible at telling you things if you're not at work (which when it comes to money is the least helpful!) and still no update on wages. Fun times.
Co-worker has got a job at Mark's company. Which is awesome, but makes my job harder. But there is a chance I can follow him eventually, so that's something.
I'm spiralling into repetitive awful worse-case scenario thoughts which is terrible, and tiring, and I really need to work at not running around in these circles as it's affecting every aspect of my life.
I feel like I'm just on the cusp of falling or failing or something like that. That I'm barely juggling, when, in all honesty, I'm probably not doing badly? Its - there are a few things; merlin rbb, some money stuff that might come up in april (MIGHT! APRIL! Come on brain), work, always and forever work, that I'm worrying about? But nothing insurmountable. I think.
Stupid brainweasels. I've been reading a lot of captain awkward to try and get some serenity, and read through the awesomeness of the answers and commenters and awesome. It's helping a bit, and I'm battling the weasels bit by bit.
Good things now!
I've had two days off! I got things crossed off my to do list! I socialised! Awesome things! Weekend now!
Maybe people could share happy things with me? Successes, little things that make you happy, cute animals? Picspams of pretty people? Plans for your weekend?