lick the wounds, don't regret, then move on and sing
Everything's in a haze...
Maybe it's because I still can't get rid of my mindset that everything must be according to plan. Of course, I expected trouble appearing every now and then, but not like this. Sometimes, things just cross my mind and I keep wondering about the what-would-have-been-if-I-did-that sort of things. And then I lose track of what I'm doing, I stop and think about things for a while, and then continue from there.
At the time I start continuing from where I left off, I find out that I've wasted so much time already.
Things like these happen in life, I suppose. But unfortunately in my case, these things more like get in the way of my studies; and even if I try to forget about those, there's still that nagging feeling that I've done something wrong again.
My mind [or heart?] is really lost now. Heck, I even don't know what I should feel now. I feel very close to my friends and family, but there are moments that I feel so distant and isolated, or worse - unloved (friend-wise and romance-wise). [Well, it's not like I need a boyfriend now, but I need someone to just understand and accept me as I am... I'm not one for romantic things.] I feel like a automaton lost in the middle of the jungle. I really need to clear my mind...
PS. It's really hard to move on when someone triggers the memories... :'(
Maybe it's because I still can't get rid of my mindset that everything must be according to plan. Of course, I expected trouble appearing every now and then, but not like this. Sometimes, things just cross my mind and I keep wondering about the what-would-have-been-if-I-did-that sort of things. And then I lose track of what I'm doing, I stop and think about things for a while, and then continue from there.
At the time I start continuing from where I left off, I find out that I've wasted so much time already.
Things like these happen in life, I suppose. But unfortunately in my case, these things more like get in the way of my studies; and even if I try to forget about those, there's still that nagging feeling that I've done something wrong again.
My mind [or heart?] is really lost now. Heck, I even don't know what I should feel now. I feel very close to my friends and family, but there are moments that I feel so distant and isolated, or worse - unloved (friend-wise and romance-wise). [Well, it's not like I need a boyfriend now, but I need someone to just understand and accept me as I am... I'm not one for romantic things.] I feel like a automaton lost in the middle of the jungle. I really need to clear my mind...
PS. It's really hard to move on when someone triggers the memories... :'(