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Just wanted to get a quickie in before I drop off. I was (somewhat) creatively procrastinating this afternoon. Should be studying for that gyronomous midterm tomorrow. Perhaps in the morning?? LOL.
I still have to study, grab quick breakfast from the canting, study some more, try not to fail my midterm, read all 300 pages of econ notes, and pack for the two week study tour tomorrow. Or, at least, that's the plan. We'll see how well something like that actually works.
I was doing a lot of thinking today. Or rather reminiscing about past thoughts. It's so weird how life changes...how we make choices that completely change what outcomes COULD be. One of those things that brings tears to your eyes and even still, you know you just need a good cry, because that the decision you made was probably the one you would have been happiest with, all circumstances known, and there's no reason to start questioning your conscious choices or feel unsuccessful because of them. (I use the term success loosely). And, yeah, I was thinking about the stupidity of chance encounters. (If you haven't noticed, my Engrish has gotten worse since I've been here in China, lol!) It makes me think about that song, Reflection, on the Mulan movie. "When will my reflection show who I am inside?" I think it is time for the world to see me as I am, not as I pretended to be, or what I might, through vicarious living, seem to be. I apologize to the masses. Who I am (and have always been inside...at least since I was 15 yrs old) now is not who you knew then, unless by some fortunate chance, you had the wherewithal to see beyond a physical personification.
I won't be back for two weeks. Then, I'll only have three more weeks left here. Tomorrow, I will have been here for a full month. (It seems a lot longer).
Have a great night. Or enjoy the afternoon!
Much love from Zhongguo!
Jenny Lee The BLUE DREAM STREAM GODDESS (or not...)