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I have to admit that I haven't been doing well...
Problems with the roommate and her boyfriend sleeping in our room every night and her not seeming to mind me having to walk the long ten paces across the room in a towel because he's STILL here at 6am.
Problems with her not wanting to turn on the lights or open the window, which is depressing and I've been getting dressed in the dark for the past 11 weeks.
Problems with people at work.
Problems getting qualified for things because no one cares.
I'm learning who I can and cannot ask for help and the people who I can ask for help... are very very few.
Problems with the strict rules and how I'm not allowed to be off base past midnight or by myself at all.
So when I get stir crazy and manage to find someone to go off base with... they get weird.
There's probably only 40 females on base. The rest of the thousands of junior enlisted marines and navy are males. And they're all fucked up because the military kind of fucks you up and when you say no, they insult you and threaten to tell everyone that you're a bitch... which I've become because of these retarded assholes who don't want to be friends with me and don't even think I'm attractive anyway. And yeah... fuck them. But I've got to put up with this for the next two years... longer if I can't negotiate moving back to the states when my rotation date is up.
I'm also over exerting myself physically. I don't have any privacy. I can't work out without someone yelling at me or "trying" to motivate me. PLEASE... just let me run at a pace that isn't going to injure me and just accept that this whole yelling at me thing just isn't going to make me less tired or stretch my legs out.
These people are nuts. I kind of hate it here. This isn't the kind of person I want to be and I can't wait to get the fuck out.
Problems with the roommate and her boyfriend sleeping in our room every night and her not seeming to mind me having to walk the long ten paces across the room in a towel because he's STILL here at 6am.
Problems with her not wanting to turn on the lights or open the window, which is depressing and I've been getting dressed in the dark for the past 11 weeks.
Problems with people at work.
Problems getting qualified for things because no one cares.
I'm learning who I can and cannot ask for help and the people who I can ask for help... are very very few.
Problems with the strict rules and how I'm not allowed to be off base past midnight or by myself at all.
So when I get stir crazy and manage to find someone to go off base with... they get weird.
There's probably only 40 females on base. The rest of the thousands of junior enlisted marines and navy are males. And they're all fucked up because the military kind of fucks you up and when you say no, they insult you and threaten to tell everyone that you're a bitch... which I've become because of these retarded assholes who don't want to be friends with me and don't even think I'm attractive anyway. And yeah... fuck them. But I've got to put up with this for the next two years... longer if I can't negotiate moving back to the states when my rotation date is up.
I'm also over exerting myself physically. I don't have any privacy. I can't work out without someone yelling at me or "trying" to motivate me. PLEASE... just let me run at a pace that isn't going to injure me and just accept that this whole yelling at me thing just isn't going to make me less tired or stretch my legs out.
These people are nuts. I kind of hate it here. This isn't the kind of person I want to be and I can't wait to get the fuck out.