10 Min
I have 10 minutes, so this likely won't be long.
I just realised I haven't updated since a few days after my birthday.
I've done some fun thing and met some new friends, reconnected with some old ones, and gotten to know myself better. I've lost almost 50 pounds and am almost to where I want to be with my fitness level.
Getting better at liking guys and convincing myself to get over it.
Been drinking a lot lately. Trying to work on it.
Buckling down and doing what needs to be done instead of drifting by myself with no direction. Back in school. Still working full time. Trying to concentrate on getting myself back up to the standards I had set for me.
Coming up on a year of Ian and I having split. Two weeks to the day. I've gone through a lot since then but I can't say I regret it. I have said and I reiterate that I would rather be alone and a little sad than with someone and miserable. It isn't worth it.
My nephews were born 8/18/10 at 29 weeks, both weighing just about 2.5 pounds. They are doing well, still in the NICU where they will be til mid october.
I've been a hormonal little girl lately, I am getting better at squashing it though. Still having issues just letting go and being emotional and normal, except around very few people. Again, I'm working on it. Have several projects, things I want to get better at, which include, but are not limited to Not talking about myself all the time, skateboarding, hula hooping, crocheting, writing more, reading more often, keeping my truck clean and getting into better shape. Trying to do a major overhaul of my life, essentially. I've been stagnating and that is not a happy place to be.
Very worried about Jewels, she has been in and out of the hospital for the past 2 months. She is very ill and can't walk more than 10 feet. I don't know how to process this, it worries me so much. SOme of it is genetic and they will have to test baby Johnny for it.
Made some new friends, don't know if they'll stick. Lost touch with some old ones, though also re established with a few old ones. Life is funny the way everything is interwoven. No one is truly an island. The world is too freaking small.
As I said to someone earlier, the world may suck and life is bleak, but that's no reason not to make an effort and just sit around.
Striving for optimism. Wish me luck.
I just realised I haven't updated since a few days after my birthday.
I've done some fun thing and met some new friends, reconnected with some old ones, and gotten to know myself better. I've lost almost 50 pounds and am almost to where I want to be with my fitness level.
Getting better at liking guys and convincing myself to get over it.
Been drinking a lot lately. Trying to work on it.
Buckling down and doing what needs to be done instead of drifting by myself with no direction. Back in school. Still working full time. Trying to concentrate on getting myself back up to the standards I had set for me.
Coming up on a year of Ian and I having split. Two weeks to the day. I've gone through a lot since then but I can't say I regret it. I have said and I reiterate that I would rather be alone and a little sad than with someone and miserable. It isn't worth it.
My nephews were born 8/18/10 at 29 weeks, both weighing just about 2.5 pounds. They are doing well, still in the NICU where they will be til mid october.
I've been a hormonal little girl lately, I am getting better at squashing it though. Still having issues just letting go and being emotional and normal, except around very few people. Again, I'm working on it. Have several projects, things I want to get better at, which include, but are not limited to Not talking about myself all the time, skateboarding, hula hooping, crocheting, writing more, reading more often, keeping my truck clean and getting into better shape. Trying to do a major overhaul of my life, essentially. I've been stagnating and that is not a happy place to be.
Very worried about Jewels, she has been in and out of the hospital for the past 2 months. She is very ill and can't walk more than 10 feet. I don't know how to process this, it worries me so much. SOme of it is genetic and they will have to test baby Johnny for it.
Made some new friends, don't know if they'll stick. Lost touch with some old ones, though also re established with a few old ones. Life is funny the way everything is interwoven. No one is truly an island. The world is too freaking small.
As I said to someone earlier, the world may suck and life is bleak, but that's no reason not to make an effort and just sit around.
Striving for optimism. Wish me luck.