I can't keep thinking about you, its too painful
umass= good times i feel really comfy here... so thats pretty awesome... umm my art classes are good except for this one bitch teacher i have who just makes me wanna say to her "fuck you for looking soo bad and having 0 friends cuz everyone hates you!" yea noo shes one of those people who are like yea i like being a bitch, like when she gives people attitude she talks to like your stupid combined with a condiscending attitude added with smiling... it makes me wanna draw a penis on her face... grrr ooo well anyway yea other than that stuff is good... me and megan have such a kick ass room, it looks soo goood i love it =) and there is plenty of room but i think we're gonna bunk the beads just soo we can get a couch or a big chair or something like that soo we'll have more space incase anyone wants to spend the night and what not... meg and i have been super cool roommates and we get along great... ummmm we got a fish but it only lasted for a couple of weeks cuz it wouldn't eat for the 2nd week soo it had these periods where it wouldn't move and just randomly start swimming, and then on friday it just had a seizure and died... yea... ok umm its really hard for me to walk, like my upper caves just have been killing i think i pulled something cuz i was walking back to my dorm sat night and i just tripped and fell, i'm soo clumsy, i tripped down the steps fri morning walking to class and broke my sandle and i was walking w/o a shoe on and a bee stung my toe soo it hurt like a bitch for the whole day soo i donno i just get bad luck, i'm soo clumsy its not even funny... i'm getting mad rightnow cuz my noodles are too hott and i think i might put them in the fridge to coool it down for a bit but i also might completely forget it cuz i'm dumb like that, ahh i'm soo hungry i hate it but i really dont feel like getting a burnt tongue cuz those suck... i have soo many art projects due all this week but i wanted to write in this cuz i havent in a while cuz i forget i have this soo i thought i should keep this thing alive... hmm lets see as far as the guy situation there really are none that are interested in me soo that blows, i went on a date i think a week ago, well it wasnt really a date, we met for dinner at the franklin dc lol wow some date, but i really didn't like the guy even tho he was sooo hott but i felt like i kept on having to keep the conversation going and cracking jokes, soo i was like awww man, i donno i dont think i give people that much of a chance sometimes probably cuz i'm waiting for someone else which is pretty dumb considering i should move on but its really hard, with me its kinda like i dont ever really move on i just put everything i have that reminds me of him away into a box and seal it with duct tape and throw it somewhere in the back of my closet and never open it and make my closet reallly messy soo i don't find it and eventually forget about it and i try to keep myself busy so i dont have to think about him and try not to think about him until i see him again and try to not get attached again, cuz i dont wanna try and find someone else cuz i always get rejected and have to start over again and its just a pain in the butt... soo yea things have been alright, i mean there have been a few nights here where i'm not really doing anything and sit and think about the stuff that i miss, those nights really suck, cuz i kinda feel like i'm not supposed to miss it or think about it even tho i really want to.... what the eff am i talking ab???