if you concentrate really hard on the sounds of nature, all the bs noise fades into the distance
so today was for the most part good.. i am sort of drunk right now.. i drank the majority of the bottle of wine by myself.. wine is good.,.. but it makes for very slow typing and a lot of backspacing... I keep typing words like "fot" instead of "of"... April has allready fallen asleep.. what the hell is wrong with me.. it is so hard for me to be secure in anything.. or to believe anything for that matter.. it seems like Danielle and I have the same mental issues.. and it annoys both of the people that we are with.. mabye that is why we are friends.. maybe we are both fucked up in the same ways.. who knows... I wish I could just know things.. but somehow I can't... maybe I am crazy.. and I should stop subjecting the world to me.. maybe I made Danielle crazy.. maybe I should go hide in a hole by myself... I can't deal with all of my insecurities.. and the sucky thing is.. people don't like insecure people.. ok.. well I'll shut up now and sign off.. drunk people are too honest for their own good. and talk to damn much..