*sigh*
So yet another long boring day starts winding down at work. Things are going great at the old computer lab. Except the part where I have to work with certain people. I used to enjoy coming here and now it's starting to really feel like an obligation, when these certain people are working. Oh well...work is work and there's a reason they call it such. I think.
Today wasn't so bad except for the getting a headache really close to the end of my shift. So now I'm not really wanting to do anything and I feel bad. After I get out of work I am going to pick up the boyfriend so he can spend the next few days at my house, so he can save money and have something substantial to eat and everything, not to mention the getting to see him thing. I just hope that I didn't get him upset with our conversation last night. I really feel like an ass pushing him to stay and making him feel like shit cuz he made me feel bad, cuz he wasn't letting me help him. I honestly never meant to hurt him or make him feel bad. I was just trying to make things a little easier for him money wise so he could actually accomplish his goal of wanting to save money this summer for school. I don't want him to not have money when he goes back to school because he spent so much trying to get to Providence so he could make money. I just didn't think it made sense. And I get that he doesn't wanna rely on other people because he wants to be independent all the time but I think it's great he's so independent I really do but he needs to know when to give in for a little bit. He can't afford to be on his own right now and go to school at the same time anymore than I can...and my school costs less!!! Granted I have a car and I'll be needing to pay the insurance and gas and everything but still...I wouldn't try to be on my own if I knew I couldn't. Sometimes you just have to accept things the way they are...like me caring for him so much, he needs to accept the fact that I'm always going to care for him and wanna be there for him when he needs help and even when he's too stubborn and proud to admit it.
But ok..my head hurts so I'm gonna get away from the computer for a little bit. Bye bye..<\lj-cut>
Today wasn't so bad except for the getting a headache really close to the end of my shift. So now I'm not really wanting to do anything and I feel bad. After I get out of work I am going to pick up the boyfriend so he can spend the next few days at my house, so he can save money and have something substantial to eat and everything, not to mention the getting to see him thing. I just hope that I didn't get him upset with our conversation last night. I really feel like an ass pushing him to stay and making him feel like shit cuz he made me feel bad, cuz he wasn't letting me help him. I honestly never meant to hurt him or make him feel bad. I was just trying to make things a little easier for him money wise so he could actually accomplish his goal of wanting to save money this summer for school. I don't want him to not have money when he goes back to school because he spent so much trying to get to Providence so he could make money. I just didn't think it made sense. And I get that he doesn't wanna rely on other people because he wants to be independent all the time but I think it's great he's so independent I really do but he needs to know when to give in for a little bit. He can't afford to be on his own right now and go to school at the same time anymore than I can...and my school costs less!!! Granted I have a car and I'll be needing to pay the insurance and gas and everything but still...I wouldn't try to be on my own if I knew I couldn't. Sometimes you just have to accept things the way they are...like me caring for him so much, he needs to accept the fact that I'm always going to care for him and wanna be there for him when he needs help and even when he's too stubborn and proud to admit it.
But ok..my head hurts so I'm gonna get away from the computer for a little bit. Bye bye..<\lj-cut>