Bourbon? Seto, dear, at least drink something better than the bourbon I use for cooking! I was wondering where that went!!! I have a whole wine collection at home. Come home, I'll pour you a glass, and you can talk to me instead of drinking by yourself!
You aren't being chastised for being different - or deviating from the norm. You have never given what other people think a second thought before, saved yourself from worse disreputable rumors and situations, and only now...
It's me, isn't it? Please, please love, TALK TO ME!!! Don't tell me that it's "fine." I'm sick of your denial!
I don't like the taste of the stuff. It's too stiff and it burns the throat. I'll be fine as soon as my headache goes away. I hate feeling like this, and I'm sure you know that. *pops a few pills and takes a glass or water, drinking down the entire glass in nearly one gulp*
It's not you. I have had this for a while now. I just can't explain it. I . . . *nearly drawn to tears* don't know how.
Well, I'd like to address each of your issues you mentioned in your post, and you can elaborate your feelings on them as we go along. *is modeling his approach after Dr. Reinhold's*
First, you mentioned that your version of fun is different from others, and that your enjoyments are your own. Does this make you feel isolated? Could you elaborate on what you see as fun?
Yes, I do feel isolated, especially among my peers. I have very little in common with them and it's a bother sometimes to try to elaborate when they just view me as someone that is much younger than they are.
What I find fun is being able to look at a project, see it to fruition and watch the people enjoy what I create. Another thing I find fun is watching children play and being able to put the smile on their faces. This was my dream, and yet now I'm starting to feel empty because I have done what I set out to do and I'm at a stand still.
How can you say you've finished? There are still orphaned children out there. There are still abandoned children, and there are still terminally ill, starving, homeless, and abused children out there, too! Your mission to help the children of this world is far from over, Seto. There is much more to accomplish!
Plus, there are children like you and me, who had to sacrifice childhood in order to survive in this world. Now we are adults, the ones that Time forgot.
The second issue you mentioned is that you have everything you need or want. This can't possibly be true, or you wouldn't be so depressed. There is something missing, Seto. What is it?
*rushes forward and holds tightly in arms* It's okay, love. You can cry. *rubs back while holding* How do you feel that you've let your birth parents down?
*holds tightly as his tears start to fall and his body shakes slightly* I feel that I have done the opposite of what my parents were trying so hard to raise me not to become. I became heartless at one time, selfish and cold. I can't live like that and I have done my best not to become that person again. I was confused when Atem took that part away. I was lost, confused, and scared but I chose to close myself off from the world and I shut Mokuba out. That's not what I was raised to be.
And now you are on the right path to who you were meant to be... Aren't you? I always thought so. *gentle kiss* That's why I love you so much. ^_^ I believe in you, Seto.
*moves to look into Amelda's eyes* Yeah, but you needed to know. This is something that I have hidden and it's bothered me for years. Seeing that you were going through your issues and listening to you talk about your past just made me remember something that I wanted to forget. *wipes his eyes as he smiles* I feel now that in order for out marriage to succeed, I have to be open with who I am, who I was and who I will be. I have to accept my past, not hide from it.
That sounds like a plan! ^_^ You know I'll be here for you.
Now, the next issue... You take your aggression out on the workers. May I suggest not doing that? Try a heavy aerobic workout like jujitsu or something.
^_^; {Thinks: Shit! No escape!} *really reluctantly* Sure.
The next issue I'd like to discuss is something that... *deep breath* hits really close to home. You mentioned "the pillar that's about to break, [your] foundation is starting to crack." This really worried me, Seto. This is exactly why I've felt so guilty for so long. I have always needed you to be my strength. I've always relied on you. Now, when I need you the most, you are weakening under the burden of loving me. This not only makes me feel worse, but it also makes me extremely concerned about you. This is an ominous sign of a psychotic breakdown, and I can't have that happening to you.
We need to fix this, Seto, before you break. We need to prevent this.
Between the pressures of work, finding you a psychiatrist, getting things straightened out with Miruko and the crashed honeymoon, I feel that it was too much for me to take all at once. I could do it, but it was getting to the point that I was doing it all.
Don't. . . I feel bad enough as it is to tell you this. I love you and I just thought. . . *starts to feel himself break as he grips the arm of the chair with white knuckles* You're not a burden, I failed in telling you the problems and they just all piled up and I didn't talk. I just didn't want you to feel the pressure.
Bourbon? Seto, dear, at least drink something better than the bourbon I use for cooking! I was wondering where that went!!! I have a whole wine collection at home. Come home, I'll pour you a glass, and you can talk to me instead of drinking by yourself!
You aren't being chastised for being different - or deviating from the norm. You have never given what other people think a second thought before, saved yourself from worse disreputable rumors and situations, and only now...
It's me, isn't it? Please, please love, TALK TO ME!!! Don't tell me that it's "fine." I'm sick of your denial!
Let me be your support!
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It's not you. I have had this for a while now. I just can't explain it. I . . . *nearly drawn to tears* don't know how.
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First, you mentioned that your version of fun is different from others, and that your enjoyments are your own. Does this make you feel isolated? Could you elaborate on what you see as fun?
*waits patiently*
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What I find fun is being able to look at a project, see it to fruition and watch the people enjoy what I create. Another thing I find fun is watching children play and being able to put the smile on their faces. This was my dream, and yet now I'm starting to feel empty because I have done what I set out to do and I'm at a stand still.
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Plus, there are children like you and me, who had to sacrifice childhood in order to survive in this world. Now we are adults, the ones that Time forgot.
The second issue you mentioned is that you have everything you need or want. This can't possibly be true, or you wouldn't be so depressed. There is something missing, Seto. What is it?
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Now, the next issue... You take your aggression out on the workers. May I suggest not doing that? Try a heavy aerobic workout like jujitsu or something.
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The next issue I'd like to discuss is something that... *deep breath* hits really close to home. You mentioned "the pillar that's about to break, [your] foundation is starting to crack." This really worried me, Seto. This is exactly why I've felt so guilty for so long. I have always needed you to be my strength. I've always relied on you. Now, when I need you the most, you are weakening under the burden of loving me. This not only makes me feel worse, but it also makes me extremely concerned about you. This is an ominous sign of a psychotic breakdown, and I can't have that happening to you.
We need to fix this, Seto, before you break. We need to prevent this.
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(OOC: No expression changes on four different threads?)
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