la madre esta aqui

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Yeah, she's here with my friend Mark. We went to NSA, the amish market, Eurotrip (very funny.), army/navy wrestling (22-9 navy), and watched some family guy. Good time, I'm supposed to go to church with them tomorrow, and should probably be sleeping now, but I cant, even though I feel sorta sick. I was boxing last night,and had practice this morning. i took a few hits, but won last night, it was fun--fun enough for the nose to start bleeding and shake the cranium a bit. i dont no if i have a headache from that or from getting sick...hope it's not from the latter. I'm in a really "i dont give a shit" mood right now, and don't really know why. not so much in a bad way, just kinda nonshelant(sp?) whatever, i dont know french. anyway, i'm going to bed, just wanted to say that. nothing really deep to say. lots of thoughts though. i should probably write this shit down some time. well, i guess i could say one thing, it deals with what we were talking about in western lit--this guy named baudelaire. he was like the original madonna in the 1800s. whelp, i was listening to eminem today with my friend, and realized that he's sorta the same way. he's not necessarily just seeking attention, but is saying that he's bad, and so is all of humanity. like with eminem, white america: he's saying that any one of "your" kids could be just like him. all corrupt and shit. that gets people thinking, but then he puts the disclaimer at the end. he is able to express himself through his music, as baudelaire was able to express himself through his poetry. i guess b-dizzle was the original guy who sat in the corner of the coffee shop smoking his cigarette and scribbling on napkins all the random frenchy thoughts that came to mind, but that's just it; he was the epitome of that genre of people, THE pioneer. it makes me think of all the "goth" people, or all the people who are "individuals" and feel the need to get crunk ass piercings, and wear "different" clothes to be "unique". all these words are tossed around, but are they really different? yeah, i mean, all humans are different, but i think that we are moreso the same in most respects. they have their own fucking group now, their own cult. they are no more unique than military peeps. the only difference for them is that their uniforms consist of dark hair with neon colours in it, saggy pants with needless metal clips on them, sneakers, and thick rimmed glasses. they use big words to sound smart, but what are they proving? sure, some of them are smart, no more than any "group." my question is, we are all humans, why do we feel the need to separate ourselves? what is cool? why do people do what they do, dammit!? haha, if anyone can answer all that shit (and prove it) they can....well, then i guess they'll know. sooo many theories. i say to a certain extent, just leave 'em be, but when does it get out of hand??
just a thought.
and with that, i'm out. later.