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Le sigh.
I was resolved not to talk to him anymore. Then he called last night. We talked for three hours. Mostly about the situation, but about plenty of other things. I feel like I have a much better understanding of what he wants to happen here, but if I go along with it then I'm the one compromising what I want. And what am I getting for compromising?
I don't know. The whole thing is confusing and difficult. That's what happens when love is involved. When you care about someone it's hard to say, "We need time apart," even if you think it's what's best. I don't even know if that's what's best anymore.
Anyway, I got up around 8:30 this morning and had breakfast... but considering I was awake from 1am to 4am, I wasn't feeling quite rested. I went back to sleep and told my grandmother to wake me up if something important happened. At 11:30 she woke me up to tell me my cousin, Patrick, was here. So I got up, took a shower and got dressed. We had lunch at this awesome local pizza restaurant called Tony's, then walked around the boardwalk in historic downtown Georgetown. After that, Patrick took me to the beach and we walked around there for about an hour. I got some gorgeous pictures, and it was so peaceful there. Tomorrow we're going out on the boat. I'm *stoked*... anything to do with being in, on, or near water gets me excited.
Came home and had a great dinner, and right now we're all in the living room either playing or watching a game of dominoes. Patrick and I sat on the porch and talked for awhile, and now I'm waiting for Ms. Emily to call me so I can catch her up on my life drama and hear about her trip to Vegas.
I'm glad that I still have two full days left to be in this paradise. Also, there is a small chance I might get up early in the morning to watch the sun rise over the river outside my uncle's house. :)