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who is this person staring back in the mirror with tears almost constantly on her face? they come in the dark, after saying goodbye to the love of my life, when i'm truly alone.
where did my optimism go?
why do i feel like, when i'm doing one thing that's good for me, it ruins other things i need to do that are good for me?
why am i so lonely? i'm surrounded by people i should be getting to know, but there's always exhaustion, or a tv distracting them, or things to do, or the need to bike everywhere which takes hours as opposed to minutes...
has the real world really crushed my spirit so much?
where did my optimism go?
why do i feel like, when i'm doing one thing that's good for me, it ruins other things i need to do that are good for me?
why am i so lonely? i'm surrounded by people i should be getting to know, but there's always exhaustion, or a tv distracting them, or things to do, or the need to bike everywhere which takes hours as opposed to minutes...
has the real world really crushed my spirit so much?