welll shit...
i miss nick.. its so hard to think he's really gone.. and i cant stop crying.. christie alexis and i just sat in my room for an hour.. talking about stories and things we've done with him and how much fun he is.. and how he was always there for us... and its so sad that he isnt there anymore... im just glad i can kind of be there for him by writing him everyday and being there to listen to anything he needs to say......
i saw Matt today.. weird... i thought i still loved him. but i realized that i dont, i just wanted to, cuz i wanted someone that i could say i loved truly n i just wanted to think that we were going to end up back together, but now i know that it wont ever be that way, and im happy..
being grounded really sucks... it drives me crazy, i cant stand being home this often, i shouldnt have lied..
but anyway, im going back upstairs to lay with my gurls..
i miss you nick.. xox
<3
p.s. icy by gucci mane is by far the greatest song ever
i saw Matt today.. weird... i thought i still loved him. but i realized that i dont, i just wanted to, cuz i wanted someone that i could say i loved truly n i just wanted to think that we were going to end up back together, but now i know that it wont ever be that way, and im happy..
being grounded really sucks... it drives me crazy, i cant stand being home this often, i shouldnt have lied..
but anyway, im going back upstairs to lay with my gurls..
i miss you nick.. xox
<3
p.s. icy by gucci mane is by far the greatest song ever