May 17, 2005 16:26
so its been pretty hectic lately.....
havent updated in a long while n i am sitting at home bored so i figured why not now!
im about to bitch so if you dont want to listen just scroll down n read another
nothing really been hanging out with amanda alot lately!
well we all try hanging out me amanda fb but she says me n aa act different i dont see it n neither does amanda but i guess we do. we never mean to do the stuff we do but i guess it just happens n we try n change it but we cant b/c neither of us no how we are being strange. it really bother me tho b/c fb said a bunch of stuff about me behind my back n just i dont kno wat to do about it. we talked about n everything well nbot really more like screaming n nothing really got resolved i am still real real madd about her talking shit. wat to do wat to do!!!!!! i love fb to death n we have been tru so much but if she talks about me once is she going to do it again. i just dont kno anymore. we've been thru alot n i would hate to lose it all but then again do i need friends that tlak about me prolly not?
oh she told me i act like amanda now. i dont see how but i do! i tihnk the mopre you hang out with someone the more u act like them just like i think she acts like clara sometimes. its just how it goes!!! i will try n change it but i dont kno how i am going to be able to when she acts totally different too. i dont kno its just crazy its like a rollercoster one minute were up then next were down so who knoes how it will end.
this friday n saturday the cancer walk RELAY 4 LIFE!!!!!!
amanda is prolly going with me as long as her mother lets her
if me n fb get things stragihtened out then she might go to only time will tell.
i still like jesse i was thinking hey maybe im over him but i was wrong n im not.
i absolutely hate it
this feeling sucks
but thats about all talk to everyone later.
please comment n tell me wat i should do
i NEED advice people PLEASE!!!!!!
<3 jessica
n all i need is a month
to change his life FOREVERx3