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have no life of my own
Just found out out i posted a comment or question on every single post a friend in Japan made.
Seems i have little to talk about my own life, but in actuallity i prolly have alot i need to get out anyways.
I've professed my feelings about a certain someone to many friends already but not to her.
And i wanna say something to make K-sama feel better but i dunno how.
I'm in a similar situation myself, unable to get over a relationship that might be over, but might not be, atleast thats how it is for me.
I could swear its over but i don't want it to be over.
In an attempt at some action though, i've started looking for a Friends with Benefits thing on craigslist. But in all honesty, i find myself a bit weired by the thought of rather emotionless sex...I guess its because I want the passion and the heat in the sex as well as just the sex. At one point i was like hrm maybe all i need now is sex... but then at another point i was like emotionless sex doesn't make sense. Then i scard myself one day when i thought about just sex no emotions no nothing...
I think of myself as a nymph but that doesn't strike me as appealing.
then there's the whole thing about naesama,
I wasn't sure if I was over her or not anyways, becasue after we parted, or atleast separated, I've felt freer but at times i dont' want to be freer
i liked her company, and just feeling like i was loved or something or other
i can't say i'm not in my family but its not the same feeling.
i dunno
i'm just a noob at emotional play anyways.
well i gotta sleep
my feelings and stuff are just weird at the moment
so yeah
g'nite
---end entry---
btw/ i saw 12 monkies last night
and it was good
it was liek Brazil plus the matrix plus fight club all rolled into one nice package
laters
Just found out out i posted a comment or question on every single post a friend in Japan made.
Seems i have little to talk about my own life, but in actuallity i prolly have alot i need to get out anyways.
I've professed my feelings about a certain someone to many friends already but not to her.
And i wanna say something to make K-sama feel better but i dunno how.
I'm in a similar situation myself, unable to get over a relationship that might be over, but might not be, atleast thats how it is for me.
I could swear its over but i don't want it to be over.
In an attempt at some action though, i've started looking for a Friends with Benefits thing on craigslist. But in all honesty, i find myself a bit weired by the thought of rather emotionless sex...I guess its because I want the passion and the heat in the sex as well as just the sex. At one point i was like hrm maybe all i need now is sex... but then at another point i was like emotionless sex doesn't make sense. Then i scard myself one day when i thought about just sex no emotions no nothing...
I think of myself as a nymph but that doesn't strike me as appealing.
then there's the whole thing about naesama,
I wasn't sure if I was over her or not anyways, becasue after we parted, or atleast separated, I've felt freer but at times i dont' want to be freer
i liked her company, and just feeling like i was loved or something or other
i can't say i'm not in my family but its not the same feeling.
i dunno
i'm just a noob at emotional play anyways.
well i gotta sleep
my feelings and stuff are just weird at the moment
so yeah
g'nite
---end entry---
btw/ i saw 12 monkies last night
and it was good
it was liek Brazil plus the matrix plus fight club all rolled into one nice package
laters