WoW....i like him even more!
I just came back from CCE, i shared more stories and heard other very touching, eye-opening ones too from the awesome friends i have there.
He helped me out. Oh, so i do appreciate it! He's such a wonderful person that I'll always be there for.YAY-PROM!
I cried once again, but those were tears of finally sharing with others for help, if i make sense. I shared two very painful and heartbreaking situations going on in my life. One i CANNOT tell bc it will effect others people's lives. But i told my story at CCE. Chad really made me realize that i still had those feelings towards that once hated, pathetic fool i never met, but yet, he's changed our lives. I just gotta let it all GO AWAY and just know that we are much better off with this careless man.
But before all that, i just opened up and told everyone that it's SO DARN HARD going to mass every Sunday alone, without my family. It tore me up inside that first day i sang with the choir as i waited for them to walk through those doors.
They never showed.
I just have to pray and accept the way things are right now. I should pray for them to see the light in getting closer to church and how much it can change one's life.. It's just so hard bc it's like my mother is watching my every move, since my whole "new self". I definitely see a change within and i know others do, but it brings me down so badly when my parents say i havent changed.
I'M NOOOOOOTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT PEEEEERFFFFFFFFFFFFFECCCCCCCCCCCCCTTTTTTTT!!!!
My mom thinks i have to be the perfect kid, in order to devote myself the God. Yes, i know i should be aware of my ridiculous mistakes i do make......BUT WE'RE ALL SINNERS. I know i shouldnt argue with my mother, but i DO TRY NOT TO. When it happends she just says she doesnt have to be like me and go to church to believe in God, join the choir, or help the parish out so much. I know that. I just want her to be there by my side and realize that it hurts me not to have my family there.
I just have to help myself first and pray for them <3
I like him even more!!!