I'VE NEVER FELT SO FULFILLED :D :D :D :D :D
This weekend has absolutley been the MOST AMAZING!I went to St. Mary's Confirmation retreat this beautiful weekend!
GUESS WHAT DAVE, CHARLIE, THE WHOLE DECEMBER DRIVE.....I DID IT, I DID IT....I KEPT YOU IN MY HEAD AND I FINALLY SANG!!!!!!!!
I've experienced so much love, laughter, joy, friendships, and courage throughout my journey. Just giving my all to the Lord above has deeply opened my eyes to something called happiness! I feel quite blessed to be here on this earth. I remember i hid the hate i had for myself deep within me and pretended everything was fine. But now...WOW...i opended my eyes to the image God wants me to be. I'm beginning to LOVE MYSELF!
At the camp site for retreat on Sat night we had just finished dinner and Chad and i rehearsed for the first time. I asked if you could go outside to rehearse since it's far beyond glorious with the peaceful Lake the Lord has set aside. He played his acoustic guitar and i started off NERVOUSLY SLOW! he jumped in to sing with me and i finally gave in. I turn towards the water and "Sang like no one was listening"...I choked a bit, but then we went over the song again and i just went for it. His gf Erika came by and when i was done she said sang beautifly and i have nothing to worry about. Erika gave me 3 hawaiian lays (SP),that we got from our awesome dinner, for good luck.
I felt so much love and confidence and grew a HUMONGOUS KOOLAID SMILE! Thats when i finally lit my candle bc i knew everything was gonna be just great.
I finally went on and gave a quick speech of how i changed myself within as a better, happy, fulfilled young woman who opened deeply to the image of God to learn to love...me. Then i explained how i am SO BLESSED and everyone cheered!
It hit me then as i sang to "Never Alone" by Barlowgirl that this is my calling. TO GO FOR WHAT I LOVE, NEVER HOLD BACK......AND "SING SING!" I finally was brave enough to open my heart and do what i LOVE!
After the show & something else special on the "DL", the bonfire came along. I shared to Meredith many wonderful, passionate conversations. I cant believe how close we've grown. I LOVE HER SO MUCH! She actually pushed me to ask Adrian to PROM when i was doubting myself. i thought to myself...wow...he has OTHER many female friends that he seems close with. what if they have somthing going on? what if they're already planning to ask him to prom? is he even willing to go with MEEE?
But i listened to her. I was waiting for the "right moment". he wasnt ever alone, so i had to just walk up to him and asked Sarah if i could "borrow" him for a sec. Well pulled to the side of the trail and i just told him how he's been such a great friend to me and i really look up to him bc of his strong morals and beliefs that make him the person who he is. So I asked him if he'd like to prom with me. and guess what you guys....ADRIAN ADAME IS MY PROM DATE!!! I know he'll treat me like i really do matter and i know we'll have so much fun. OH-he sang and played guitar w/Isaac in the talent show...they performed "Blvd of Broken Dreams"...how AWESOME IS THAT?
Whoever does read this long BUT MOST IMPORTANT ENTRY, i just want you to now that yes, we do have to take risk in life, but most importantly we have to stay true to ourselves and go for our WILDEST, FULFILLING DREAMS. It's all worth it in the end...i know...i've done it!!!
AND JOSH-I STILL HAVE FAITH IN YOU. I REALLY MISS YOUR FRIENDSHIP.
GUESS WHAT DAVE, CHARLIE, THE WHOLE DECEMBER DRIVE.....I DID IT, I DID IT....I KEPT YOU IN MY HEAD AND I FINALLY SANG!!!!!!!!
I've experienced so much love, laughter, joy, friendships, and courage throughout my journey. Just giving my all to the Lord above has deeply opened my eyes to something called happiness! I feel quite blessed to be here on this earth. I remember i hid the hate i had for myself deep within me and pretended everything was fine. But now...WOW...i opended my eyes to the image God wants me to be. I'm beginning to LOVE MYSELF!
At the camp site for retreat on Sat night we had just finished dinner and Chad and i rehearsed for the first time. I asked if you could go outside to rehearse since it's far beyond glorious with the peaceful Lake the Lord has set aside. He played his acoustic guitar and i started off NERVOUSLY SLOW! he jumped in to sing with me and i finally gave in. I turn towards the water and "Sang like no one was listening"...I choked a bit, but then we went over the song again and i just went for it. His gf Erika came by and when i was done she said sang beautifly and i have nothing to worry about. Erika gave me 3 hawaiian lays (SP),that we got from our awesome dinner, for good luck.
I felt so much love and confidence and grew a HUMONGOUS KOOLAID SMILE! Thats when i finally lit my candle bc i knew everything was gonna be just great.
I finally went on and gave a quick speech of how i changed myself within as a better, happy, fulfilled young woman who opened deeply to the image of God to learn to love...me. Then i explained how i am SO BLESSED and everyone cheered!
It hit me then as i sang to "Never Alone" by Barlowgirl that this is my calling. TO GO FOR WHAT I LOVE, NEVER HOLD BACK......AND "SING SING!" I finally was brave enough to open my heart and do what i LOVE!
After the show & something else special on the "DL", the bonfire came along. I shared to Meredith many wonderful, passionate conversations. I cant believe how close we've grown. I LOVE HER SO MUCH! She actually pushed me to ask Adrian to PROM when i was doubting myself. i thought to myself...wow...he has OTHER many female friends that he seems close with. what if they have somthing going on? what if they're already planning to ask him to prom? is he even willing to go with MEEE?
But i listened to her. I was waiting for the "right moment". he wasnt ever alone, so i had to just walk up to him and asked Sarah if i could "borrow" him for a sec. Well pulled to the side of the trail and i just told him how he's been such a great friend to me and i really look up to him bc of his strong morals and beliefs that make him the person who he is. So I asked him if he'd like to prom with me. and guess what you guys....ADRIAN ADAME IS MY PROM DATE!!! I know he'll treat me like i really do matter and i know we'll have so much fun. OH-he sang and played guitar w/Isaac in the talent show...they performed "Blvd of Broken Dreams"...how AWESOME IS THAT?
Whoever does read this long BUT MOST IMPORTANT ENTRY, i just want you to now that yes, we do have to take risk in life, but most importantly we have to stay true to ourselves and go for our WILDEST, FULFILLING DREAMS. It's all worth it in the end...i know...i've done it!!!
AND JOSH-I STILL HAVE FAITH IN YOU. I REALLY MISS YOUR FRIENDSHIP.