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so i don't have quite that much to say.
i like being here in cincinnati. i like the people here and the things to do. i feel a certain part of my life needs to be straigtened out though. kinks and blotches that have for so long been a part of my life. but when i look at it, in the end i'll feel remorse, regret, GUILT at having let my life go down a road that i didn't want it to go down, and never stopping it in it's tracks. if, in fact, i do not fix things. life is so utterly complicated. most certainly every person needs to just sit themselves down and reevaluate their life. ask themselves "what do i really truly want?" and not move from the spot until an honest answer has sprung. i know what i want. am i willing to do any measure of things to get there? I thought about this a lot and i know for a fact that yes, i am willing to do that. anything that it takes, so that when i die and i get to see my life play before my eyes, i will feel a great wave of contentment wash over me. I will have done what i was put on this earth to do.
i only wish other people would let go of failures and move on to great things. we are dependent on no one but ourselves. human relationships come and go and are as meaningless as they are numerous. relationships are an idea of a solution to spending life alone. but in the end, no matter what, we are indeed alone. self gratification cannot come without becoming the independent being that we are, and realizing the true purpose of our existence. let go. find yourself.
i like being here in cincinnati. i like the people here and the things to do. i feel a certain part of my life needs to be straigtened out though. kinks and blotches that have for so long been a part of my life. but when i look at it, in the end i'll feel remorse, regret, GUILT at having let my life go down a road that i didn't want it to go down, and never stopping it in it's tracks. if, in fact, i do not fix things. life is so utterly complicated. most certainly every person needs to just sit themselves down and reevaluate their life. ask themselves "what do i really truly want?" and not move from the spot until an honest answer has sprung. i know what i want. am i willing to do any measure of things to get there? I thought about this a lot and i know for a fact that yes, i am willing to do that. anything that it takes, so that when i die and i get to see my life play before my eyes, i will feel a great wave of contentment wash over me. I will have done what i was put on this earth to do.
i only wish other people would let go of failures and move on to great things. we are dependent on no one but ourselves. human relationships come and go and are as meaningless as they are numerous. relationships are an idea of a solution to spending life alone. but in the end, no matter what, we are indeed alone. self gratification cannot come without becoming the independent being that we are, and realizing the true purpose of our existence. let go. find yourself.