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So I've been doing a lot of thinking.
I lie a lot.
I am sure there were just a few people that read that and were like "no kidding..." and no. most of the things i lie about are what everyone else does.
People used to, and probably still do, think that I lie about stuff that really was going on in my life. Most of it anyway was true. I did cover up some details that I was too ashamed or embarrased to tell, which made everything that passed my teeth sound untrue. But overall, it was true.
But what I have noticed is that I lie to my mom a lot about what I am doing and where I am going, even if it wouldn't be that big of a problem. I feel like I can't tell her the truth, I just don't want her to be let into my life. I am a very private person, and it is my way of feeling like I have space.
I also lie to my friends sometimes about what happened and why I didn't call or why I blew them off, like a lot of people do. I know it is wrong, but I don't want them to trust me less or not want to hang out with me. But maybe the truth is, I shouldn't be trusted as much as I am. I mean I am lying to keep my trust. I know that if I do tell the truth, and from what I have seen in others' situations, it gets you more respect and trust. Even if the truth isn't easy to handle, people respect you more. And when I can admit to my wrongdoings, it makes people happy. But yet I still continue to make excuses so that I don't have to deal with the truth. That I might be a shitty friend or daughter sometimes, and I do deserve to let people down and pay for it. And one thing is for sure, I know I am not alone.
xoDANAxo
I lie a lot.
I am sure there were just a few people that read that and were like "no kidding..." and no. most of the things i lie about are what everyone else does.
People used to, and probably still do, think that I lie about stuff that really was going on in my life. Most of it anyway was true. I did cover up some details that I was too ashamed or embarrased to tell, which made everything that passed my teeth sound untrue. But overall, it was true.
But what I have noticed is that I lie to my mom a lot about what I am doing and where I am going, even if it wouldn't be that big of a problem. I feel like I can't tell her the truth, I just don't want her to be let into my life. I am a very private person, and it is my way of feeling like I have space.
I also lie to my friends sometimes about what happened and why I didn't call or why I blew them off, like a lot of people do. I know it is wrong, but I don't want them to trust me less or not want to hang out with me. But maybe the truth is, I shouldn't be trusted as much as I am. I mean I am lying to keep my trust. I know that if I do tell the truth, and from what I have seen in others' situations, it gets you more respect and trust. Even if the truth isn't easy to handle, people respect you more. And when I can admit to my wrongdoings, it makes people happy. But yet I still continue to make excuses so that I don't have to deal with the truth. That I might be a shitty friend or daughter sometimes, and I do deserve to let people down and pay for it. And one thing is for sure, I know I am not alone.
xoDANAxo