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[blownfuses]

Sometimes I want to scream. You know, like really fucking scream? On a hill or on top or inside of some other cliche. Either way, relationships are hard. Every relationship is hard. Maybe they are only hard when you are a self-proclaimed crazy and/or an unmedicated and mildly bi-polar human like me

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[moncherierin]

I'm at the wanting to scream stage in the relationship I'm in now. We're at the point where I'm wondering what the last four months really meant. I mean, we shouldn't even be together but we recognized that and moved on, together. I'm never the one in the relationship who wants to hang out all the time and spend every waking minute together. I like my alone time. Last summer I'd go weeks without seeing the boy I was with. sure, it was because the store was just opening and it was crazy, but I wasn't the one to be like, I know I wont be able to see you for a few days but come have lunch with me on break.

but now it's different. I'm the one itching to spend time. I don't even have to be in a serious, exclusive relationship. I'd take just being really, really good friends until we are out of the situation that introduced the both of us. but the not spending time together anymore kills me. like you, I just want to feel loved by him. I'm super amazing at keeping secrets and this is a secret that I'd guard with my heart. I guess this whole relationship shows me that people have all the same insecurities with relationships regardless of their age.

it's just weird. acting at work like we are part of some huge secret- the glances, the smiles, the inside jokes- yet recently when we leave, we go our separate ways.

[seatrees]

(maybe if you could confirm/deny you were REALLY in a relationship sista-friend this could go easier!)