Blame it on decent wine.
I don't like to go off about random bullshit, but please pardon me while I wax nostalgic.
How the fuck did we end up here? Not "here" as in location, but in these situations, in these circumstances. I suppose it cliche to say live goes in unexpected directions, but I always liked to think I have some control over my life. Being in a relationship, that's rather far from the truth. Signing a lease on an apartment, even more so.
I find it funny sometimes, who I'm still around. Not just in person, but in the shadows of the net. Juu's still on my friends list, though we speak very very very little. I always find myself coming back around to see, what is she up to? Teagan is always, and I pray always, a part of my life, and her girlfriend grows on me everytime we talk. You two are so lucky. I see Josh O on his days off from work, and we thrash it up. MaryAnne Turner lived in my apartment for some time, dated my roommate, and will likely come around again when our odd silence dissipates.
But sadly, things aren't as nice as I'd like them. Me getting a job in Corvallis seems impossible, or rather highly improbable. I'm kinda at wits end here, I work very hard for under the table work, and have been able to get by. But that's about to change. I can't continue like this, the math just doesn't work out.
Oh my, I made myself sad. Pardon me, once again, while I help myself to the rest of a very decent Chardonnay.
How the fuck did we end up here? Not "here" as in location, but in these situations, in these circumstances. I suppose it cliche to say live goes in unexpected directions, but I always liked to think I have some control over my life. Being in a relationship, that's rather far from the truth. Signing a lease on an apartment, even more so.
I find it funny sometimes, who I'm still around. Not just in person, but in the shadows of the net. Juu's still on my friends list, though we speak very very very little. I always find myself coming back around to see, what is she up to? Teagan is always, and I pray always, a part of my life, and her girlfriend grows on me everytime we talk. You two are so lucky. I see Josh O on his days off from work, and we thrash it up. MaryAnne Turner lived in my apartment for some time, dated my roommate, and will likely come around again when our odd silence dissipates.
But sadly, things aren't as nice as I'd like them. Me getting a job in Corvallis seems impossible, or rather highly improbable. I'm kinda at wits end here, I work very hard for under the table work, and have been able to get by. But that's about to change. I can't continue like this, the math just doesn't work out.
Oh my, I made myself sad. Pardon me, once again, while I help myself to the rest of a very decent Chardonnay.