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i don't really know how to put it...i know i don't want him back. but i do want someone. not even a relationship even..just someone to care. someone to be my friend and be able to be there for me. yea it would be nice to date someone and be held and all the good points to it but i honestly don't believe that's ever goin to happen to me. i'm not wanting pity and i'm not wanting advice...i'm just trying to vent. yea i know in my last post i said love is overrated. i lied...i wanted to be tough because i was goin through a tough time. sometimes i'm confident and ready to go out into the world and make my own life and be successful at it. but then there are those lonley nights where all you do is think (and the sappy love movies don't help either) and then you just wanna cry, bawl, do whatever to get it out. and when you have no friends to confide in you rely on something so pitiful as a fucking livejournal. i'm not meaning to say that we're all pitiful for writing in this but when you're depressed and alone and no friends until you're 18 and even when you do turn 18 they're already as good as gone well i'm that pitiful at the moment. i know by now you're thinking yea yea yea she says she's not looking for it but she really is. well if you are..fuck you too. some friend you are when someone's in need. anywayz..i guess i'll spare the rest and try to go to bed.